My Wanderings No.162. Short Story No.65. My Friend died young .

My Wanderings  162

Short Story No.65

My Friend died young.

                        While posted as Incharge international banking  Division at Jammu branch of my bank , one day, I got some time to call my friend and  colleague who was posted recently as Branch Manager at some branch in Yamuna Nagar  Haryana. When the bell of his phone rang he was not immediately available on phone . As the bell rang longer, the phone was picked up by a stranger as  I heard an unfamiliar voice of some one from the other side.

" who is it calling ?"

"I want to talk to my friend Vijay," I retorted back immediately. 

"But Vijay is no more,"  " He has committed suicide," " His body is lying in the police station." " I am the SHO of police station, Yamuna Nagar. Why don't you come here immediately and collect his body. I was gravely  shocked to hear this untoward news of my friend and switched off the phone  greatly  perplexed. I immediately phoned his family, who were already heading towards Yamuna Nagar after knowing about this shocking news. 

                          My mind traversed back in retrospection , when I first time met Vijay and later on became his fast friend. I was posted as credit officer in newly opened  loan cell of our Bank, which dealt  with all types of credits I.e commercial loans , housing and car loans.  We were two credit officers dealing exclvesely  with commercial loans only . We used to receive loan  proposals from all the branches of our bank in jammu city. Then we had to apprise the proposals , visit the borrowers place of business and property he wanted to mortgage to bank as collateral security and get the loan sanctioned by AGM, who was the head of loan cell. Then after arranging documentation and registered mortgage etc. through our lawyers , we used to disburse the loan. This was the new experiment of bank to bring expertise in loan appraising and    uniformity in documentation and to rationalise the loan process. It was really a cumbersome and hectic process to deal in such a situation , where loan proposals  started to come in bulk numbers. Moreover, it was a risky business too . When work picked up fast and it became impossible for only two credit officers to deal with the innumerable  proposals, a third credit officer was posted at the the cell to help us. He  was a young trainee officer Vijay who started working with us. He was very  intelligent and a confident person, with  gentlemanly countenace.He aways possessed  a smile  on his face. He appeared very well versed with his work in the first go. Soon we became very good friends. We could share a lot of experiences, skill and  the job knowledge to each other. We also shared our sorrows, joys and mostly the job risks and their remedies with each other. Sometimes, we could snatch some time to visit a street tea seller to take some tea or smoke few  cigarettes there and share our experiences and take tips of job from each other, inspite of a staff canteen very close to our place of work. It would give us some respite from heavy work we were alotted.  

Vijay once exposed the land  mafia operational in jammu , which  was getting mortgage loans against fake lands. We could save our skin as all of us received proposals against mortgage of those fake lands. But in some cases, we had already burnt our fingers and  they could not be   rescued  anymore then . All of us had to bear the brunt of such cases later on.

 

                    Now proceeding further,  When the body of Vijay was brought home for cremation and performing last rites , I also visited his home at jammu. He was survived by his wife and young teenage daughter, who were in extreme remorse and intence grief . The police had closed the case declaring it as a suicide.  They were submitting theories that some loans apprised by him had turned bad during his last tenure and he was under tension . They were also saying that he was pressurised by his immediate boss for increasing business of the branch. 

But his family and friends including myself, were not satisfied with this thought process , because  we knew well that he was not a person to come under such  pressures. 

                One day his daughter disclosed me that there were signs of struggle in his rented room , where police had found him hanging by the fan.  She also disclosed that a day before his death, a bank recuitment test was being conducted at the centre , where as an examinee ,he resticated a boy for cheating, who was son of some gang leader thereat , and  who later on came with some goons and killed him and made the situation like that of suicide and police also could not take due cognizance of the case and not proceed against him, as he was highly influential person having links with  Govt. authorities. This theory  appeared to be most probable against suicide theories as per the personality of Vijay. But these were all theories, however remarkable, but could not be shown the day of light due to lack of evidence or circumstantial evidences erased by the culprit or the police. But a wife lost her loving  husband and his daughter lost her  caring father. We also lost a loyal friend. We can only remember Vijay and give him tributes but can not apprehend the culprit and bring him to justice, even if he exists. God knows better why some mysteries remain unsolved. 

Zindagi rehti hai kahan , tawseeh aur tanasul ke wasayil ho jehan.

Maut rehti hai wahan, sikudane aur simatne ke masayil ho jehan.(Ramesh)

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My wanderings 161. My Perception with Deception towards none No.8. Alaska Trump Putin meeting and changing India , China relations.

My Wanderings 161

A Perception with deception towards none No.8

Alaksa Trump, Putin meeting and changing India, China relations 

             It was really a  Trump card played by putin, when at the close of Alaska meeting between the two, he  expressed his gratitude  , with a smile on his face,  to Trump for increasing Russian exports   by twenty percent during later's tenure. On hearing this dialogue  of putin trump's face turned red but he  could not reply him instantly. Putin wanted Trump to realise the double standards adopted  by him  with India for it's crude oil imports from Russia .

              Actually it was putin who stole the show at Alaska meeting by not agreeing to handover twenty percent of land to  ukraine occupied by Russia during the conflict. The Ukraine was not also to get NATO membership which was  the  main bone of contention  and later on became the main reason of war between the two.i.e.Russia and Ukraine. However,  ukraine has been given security guarantee by European countries in case of future wars with Russia. No negotiations on BRICS formation . The immediate ceasefire of Trump has been converted by Putin into peace negotiations 

          The developments of the Alaksa meeting has been apprised to Modi by Putin through telephonic conversations to enable the former to take strageic decisions. 

                         In the mean time India  has emerged as a strong country  which  has guts to call spade a spade and say No to country like America for preserving it's self intrests and framing its policies without interference of America. Actually it was America, which was making policies in it's intrest and thrusting them upon other countries. But this time India showed to the world it's assertiveness and resolve  to be treated with deference. India has evolved now as one of the biggest economies with  the highest GDP  growth rate in the world.  India can not be taken far granted now  by America any more. India will frame it's economic  policies while looking at it's own  intrests and not at the states . India is a country with biggest population in the world. India is an atomic power and space giant. India is soon becoming biggest exporter of arms. No world power not even America can stop India from progress and development. 

                   India is now framing policies to counter the effects of high tarrifs imposed by America on it. While America is forbidding India for importing Crude oil from Russia, India has started importing more crude oil from Russia ,Brazil and Iran and Iraq. India is planning to stop crude oil imports from America .India is planning to shift it's exports of steel, almuniuim  pharmaceuticals and cereals from America to Russia,  south American and African countries.

 

             Now India has started to negotiate economic ties  with China.  External minister of China wang yi visited India and had meeting with his indian  counter part Jaishankar,  the results of which appear optimistic . It is really a great relief for India as China has agreed to lift curbs on export of rare earth minerals, fertilizers and tunnel boring machines to cater to India's  needs. Both sides also agreed to reopening border trade through designated trading points namely Lipulekh and Nathula near Ladakh .On Tiwaan Jaishankar said that like many other countries ,India follows a one China policy , but trade with Taiwan will continue. China has also agreed to early solution of border disputes with India and terror concerns of india. Now PM Modi is also visiting China soon to attend SCO conference. But India needs to observe caution in relations with china due to past experience of India with china. 

                    The reason behind the Trumps grudge against india is not it's  Russian crude oil imports but India's not agreeing to the issue that it  was Trump who made ceasefire between India and Pakistan at the time of Operation Sindoor,  thus dimming  the chances of Nobel peace prize for him. 

               Lastly ,India does not need to close all the ties with America but keep some options open to negotiate with it on equal terms and standing . With assertiveness India also needs some accommodative ness within reasonable levels ,while dealing with America. 

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My Wanderings 159. Shiv Astuti No.2. Om vyapt charachar bhav Vishesham

My Wanderings 159

Shiv Astuti 2

Om vyapt charachar bav vishesham 

I have made an amateur attempt to translate Great Abhinav Gupt's captioned Shiv astuti in kashmiri, orginally written by him in Sanskrit.

Abhinav  Gupt was a great scholar of Kashmiri Shivism, who has contributed substantially  to this great legacy of ours.

It is said that Abhinav Gupt has left this mortal world by entering in to a cave near Beerwah, Kashmir alongwith his twelve hundred deciples while singing this Shiv Astuti. Every Kashmiri pandit is required to understand and remember this Shiv Astuti by heart.

युस थलि थलि छु सारिसय  बृम्माहडस मन्ज रोजान

युस ग्यान रुप छु, कुनुय छु, अनादि अनन्त छु आसान

युस भैरव स्वामी छु बेय युस अनाथन शरण छु दिवान

भु छुस तस शिवस पजि मन सीती  नमन करान

यी  बृम्माहंड छु चोनुय रुप आसान

यि छु मे चानि अनुगृहि सीत भासान

मगर चुय  छुख म्यैन आत्मा आसान

तवय छु ये बृमाहन्ड मे पनु नुय रुप भासान

यौहय छु मे पनुन अनुभव वनान  

दोख त मोह पृकट करन वालिन करमन मन्ज  

फंसेमित लोख छी यी वनान

संसार छु, ही नाथ, चोनुय रुप, तवय छिन संसारकेन

दुखन तिम  खोचान  

यलि चुय छुख सौर्य, चानि वराय छुन कान्ह आसान

तेलि कान्ह डर छुन चानेन भक्तेन भासान  

ही यमराज क्रोध सान कराल नजीरि मे कुन म  आस

वुछान 

बु छूस हर सात शिव चिन्तनस मन्ज मन सान  लगिथ आसान

यमि सीवाय किन भ भैरव शक्ति सीत छुस जुडिथ

चानि करूध कराल नजर हेकि न मे केन्ह ति  करिथ  

ही शिव सोरय बृम्माडं छु  चोनय सोरूप  मे भासान

यी जानिथ छु अग्यानुक अन्धकार मे खत्म गछान  

तवय छुस न भ यमराजस या भूत पेशाचस केन्ह ति खोचान.

ही नाथ चेय  छुय म्येन नमस्कार भारम्भार आसान. 

ही शिव चानेन सत्गोन रुपकेव पृवव हंदि बहान 

सारी बर्माडक तत्त्व त बेय पदार्थ छी हरकतस मंज ईवान

ईथयकनि अम्मी ग्यान कि पृकट  गछन सीत छुस भ शरदायि होन्द अमृत चवान

बेय योहय चोनुय सरूप छुस पननि आत्माय मन्ज अनुभव करान 

यलि शरीरस ताप बडावुनच कष्ट दशा छुस मन सीत मेहसूस करान 

तमी सात छु मे चानि अनुगृह सीत प्राप्त अकि अभेद वृष्टि होन्द उदय सपदान 

यमि की प्रभाव सीत छुस न भ कान्ह कष्ट अनुभव करान 

यलि वृत दान या तप सीत छु यमि संसार केन दुखन होन्द  नाश सपदान

शिव शास्त्र की चिन्तन मात्र सीत छु मनस मन्ज अमर्त्य धाराय बहान

ही शंकर चानि दर्शन सीत छु म्यान रुम रुम गाहे नचान त गाहे ग्यवान 

अभिनव गुप्त छु यि शिव असुत्त्ती  संवत 68 पोष कृष्न पक्ष दहम  दोह ग्यवान

यमिकि गवुन या उच्चारण  मात्र सीत छु शंकर खेनस मन्ज तार दिवान  

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My Wanderings 158. Chidanand Roopo Shivoham Shivoham

My Wanderings 158

Shivoham Shivoham 

I have made an attempt to translate in kashmiri a famous Bhajan of Adi Shankaracharya written by him in Sanskrit. 

न मन छुस न बुदि न चित अहंकार 

न कन, जेव  न नेत्र न छुस वायुदार

न जल छुस न पृथवी न दजुवुन भ नार

न पचं भूत न  इंद्री नय प्राण आधार

सदा पोशवुन युस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस 

न छुम दीष रागय न लोबय न मोहय 

न कान्ह मे गर्व  छुम न  ईरषा  थवान छुस

न धर्म  न  मोखशिच कामना करान छुस

न कामय न भेय  काहं वासना रछान छुस 

अनादि अनंत युस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस 

न पुन्नी न पापय ,न सोख दोख  हेवान छुस

न मंत्र जपान छुस न तीर्थ करान छुस

न वीदय परान छुस न यज्ञय करान छुस

न भोजन भ छुस न भोक्ता भ आसान 

जगत चेन्वन छुस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

न मृत्यू न शॅका न छुम जाति भेदय

न छुस माजि या मालिस भ जामुत

न गोरय न शिशय न कान्ह  मित्र थवान छुस

न जामुत न प्यामुत न भधंय न भान्धव 

शून्यस मन्ज शून्नी छुस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस   

निराकार रुप भेय अदैत सरुप छुस 

परम आनदंस मंज रोजान जरुर  छुस

न मुख्तय न बन्दय , पृथ जाय  भूय  छुस 

न नावय न आकार , परम सत्य  भूय छुस

चिदान्द रूपय शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

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My Wanderings 157. Urdu Nazam 41. Raze Khairaat

My Wanderings 158

My Urdu Nazam  41

Raze Khairaat

Shayad iss baat pe tum kuch hairaan

ho javoge.

Jitna  khairaat karoge, uss se zyada hi pavoge.

Ache log iss duniya Mai  rahkar  bahut kamate hai.

Aur dene walle  shayad kuch badkar hi paate hai.

Yeh aham  nahi sirif  Malo zar hi wapas mil jayega. 

Dene se zindagi Mai khushia aur sakoon bi aa jayega. 

Dene se koi bashar jaldi ameer nahi ho sakta hai.

Lekin Dene wala aksar khushhali mai hi  rehta hai.

Lene Wala  barhah dukhi aur gareeb rah  jata hai. 

Dene wala  apni zindagi ma bahut skoon  pata hai.

Dene wala aksar roohaniyat mai bi sabse aage  badta hai.

Kynivki Dene wala apni khawashihaat Bi 

kaboo mai karta  hai.

Jab bi tum khud kuch Dene ka faisla dil  mai karte ho.

Apni khushiyoo aur daulat ke sarmaye ka izafa bi karte ho.

Yeh bemol Hawa,Sooraj ki roshni aur kudrati wasayil jinka koi  bi nahi takaza.

Ham bool jaate hai aksar ki kudrat nai hamme kitni nematoo se hai  nawaza.

Tum chahte ho agar in kudrati wasayil kee keemat  chukana. 

Madad Karo kissi gareeb ki aur kissi ka dil na dukhana .

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My Wanderings. 156. A.Perception with deception towards none. Operation Sindoor, which revealed India's Prudent diplomacy and perfect Strategy.

There is a row in India over recent  declaration of indian CDS Gen. chohan that India Has  lost few fighter jets in the initial stage of warfare with Pakistan. When asked about numbers, he replied that  number of jets lost  is not so  important but the reason why did they lost  is more important . After rectifying their mode of operation and changing the combat tactics , they  acheived their targets of destroying nine terror camps, eleven airbases, including Sargoda and Noorkhan ,which were strategically important both for Pakistan and America, and Chinese air defence system which totally made Pakistan blind for any further  Indian air attacks . 

 

         

The reason behind the declaration of indian CDS about the losses was to keep Pakistan, China and France at the edge  as the later had not disclosed to India the source codes of raffles which could enable India to load indigenous missiles in it.  But  latter on after independent  deployment of indigenous missiles like bramhos and Akash Teer  created havoc in Pakistan and  equally contained Chinese air defence system and Chinese missiles which proved dormant and rudimentary  in front of indian indigenous warfare apparatus. The world powers were shocked to witness the calculated,precise measured and caliberated exhibition of Indian modern  kinetic and nonkinetic warfare. India showed to the world that it  can defend it's own territory with it's own  indigenous weaponry and it has  not to depend on borrowed weapons like pakistan. Moreover,  Russian air defence system S 400 helped India to defend itself from each and every attack of Pakistan through Chinese missiles and Turkish drones. 

             Air Marshal A.K.Bharti had also earlier hinted on media  about some  losses incurred by India  in initial stages of scuffle with Pakistan ,  which as stated by  him,  are part of the game,  but he also  had assured that all our pilots returned safely back which was more important. That is what indian CDS Gen.Chohan meant by saying that number of jets lost  does not matter. 

Yes losses in war are part of the game but more important is to acheive the objective  and the country which acheives the objective is a winning country. History has shown that victorious countries  sometimes  has incurred more losses than the defeated country. But no body remembers losses but the victory only.

           The American president Mr.Donald trump appeared to be  in a stoic mode at the beginning of war and said that it is a matter between India and Pakistan.  Let them decide it themselves . But after Pakistan implored him for his help and advised him about  indian missile attack on it's Sargoda airport near kirana hills and Noorkhan air base, he was shocked and intervened to stop the war for his own intrests . 

             Actually  Pakistan is repository of American nukes and not a nuclear country.  The America has kept it's nukes in Pakistan and Turkey to earmark balance of power against China Russia and India as well. America is paying rent of these nukes to Pakistan in the form of aids and granting  IMF loans.  The nukes of America  kept underground in karana hills, under their lock and key ,  appeared to  have discharged  radioactive material and some earthquakes were observed around the area. Then American plane for controlling the radioactivity reached immediately there along with plane carrying Boron from Egypt. Boron is said to be important for neutralizing effects of radioactivity. 

            Moreover,  Noor Khan air base of Pakistan  is completely under the control of America ,where American cargo planes are mostly seen landing . But even Pakistan authorities are  not given access  to that air base and they are not also aware of the goods the American planes are carrying there. It is said that many American fighter jets and cargo planes of America have also been destroyed there by the attack of indian missiles which made America to request India for ceasefire. But India told America that  request for ceasefire should come directly from Pakistan through proper channels. Then DGMO of Pakistan requested his  Indian counterpart for ceasefire.  As India has acheived it's objective and it did not want to further escalate the issue , the request of Pakistan was accepted. Then Trump wanted to take full credit of ceasefire to himself which India refuted and Trump retaliated by bullying India openly and eulogising Kashmir and making the issue trilateral but India outrightly rejected the offer and said openly that it will have bilateral talks with Pakistan only on terrorism and POK.

                  The real face of America and particulary that of Trump has now been revealed to India ,who managed to grant IMF loan to Pakistan ,despite of much objection by  India . Moreover, he is trying to bullying and cornering India in every quarter now.

              China had also come openly to support Pakistan because of its CEPAC intrest and being it's old ally. This time China also nurtured some greiveces with Pakistan as  the later  thanked America vehemently for preventing it  from indian aggression and more destruction.  But it is Russia only which has remained all weather friend of India . In the mean time Russia is also stratigic partner of China against America,. Russia  had quite recently tried to solve  some border differences of India with china. 

            Now in the present scenario, new alliances are  expected to evolve against America with China Russia and India coming together. China and India has mainly border issues which can be solved with the help of Russia .  Russia is friend of both China as well as India. India is also fed up with America . It can  now be a new traigle China,Russia and India , which can definitely overweigh the power of Ameria in general and bullying of Tump in particular. 

My wanderings 155. Urdu Ghazal 39. Hamse jaya na Gaya

Hamse  jaya na Gaya hamko  bulaya na Gaya.

Berukhi itni baddi   hamko bulaya  hi Gaya.

Ham to muntazir rahe aksar unke bulawe ke liye 

Woh bulate ham ko sirif ek baar dikhawe ke liye.

Kya kare ham ko Khud se phir jaya na Gaya.

Hamse  jaya  na Gaya hamko  bulaya na Gaya.

Yeh ranjishe kaise baddi hamko maloom  na tha.

Per yeh mokka tahkeek  ke liye maqool  na tha.

Phir koi mokka dubara  hamare haath na aaya.

Hamse  jaya  na Gaya hamko   bulaya na Gaya. 

Woh pesh aate rahe ham se badi khush asloobi se.

Kyaa patta tha kho denge ham Jo mila tha khush-naseebi se.

Hamse ulfat  ka  Geet phir se gaya na gaya.

Hamse jaya na Gaya hamko  bulaya na Gaya.

Hamari  uljhan  thi Woh  bulate ,unhe gumaan tha  ham khud hi aate.

Issi Anna ki wajah se  hamne  guzari  tanhaiyee mai hi  tamam ratain.

Unse bhi soze dil phir se sunaya  na Gaya.

Hamse  jaya na Gaya hamko bulaya na Gaya.

Berukhi  itni  badi  hamko  bulaya hi  Gaya.