Thursday, 10 September 2026

My Father Dr. Sham Lal Kaul and our lineage.


The Kaul Lineage and Early Life

In my childhood, I once laid hands on an old piece of paper depicting my family tree. It began with our ancestor, Pt. Raja Kaul, descended through generations of our forefathers, and finally ended with my grandfather’s name. At that age, I did not understand the importance of preserving the document, and I eventually lost it. Years later, I happened to read a magazine article about Pt. Jawaharlal Nehru that displayed his family tree, which also originated with Pt. Raja Kaul. As I had lost our document, I could not compare the intervening generations to confirm whether this was a coincidence or if we shared the exact same progenitor—a loss I deeply regret. However, given how extensive both descending lines were, it would come as no surprise if Pt. Raja Kaul was indeed the singular patriarch heading the Kaul dynasty in Kashmir.

From what I gathered from my elders, I can trace our specific branch back to Pt. Nand Kaul. Having no children of his own, Pt. Nand Kaul adopted a male child from his cousin and named him Ram Kaul. Later, Pt. Nand Kaul’s wife gave birth to a son, Pt. Amar Kaul, who founded another branch of our family.

Pt. Ram Kaul worked as a clerk in the Police Department and married Smt. Sampkuji from the Labru family. He was quick-witted with a bit of a temper, while his wife was a pious and kind lady. They had two sons and two daughters. Their elder son, Pt. Laxman Kaul—my grandfather—was a very religious, intelligent man who worked in the State Excise Department. He married Smt. Radhamali from the Raina family, a woman of great beauty and intellect. They had two sons: Pt. Gopi Nath Kaul and my father, Pt. Sham Lal Kaul.

Sadly, my grandfather died at the young age of 29, when my father was only two years old. Pt. Laxman Kaul was a deeply devout man. On every Shukla Paksha Ashtami, he would walk 25 kilometers from his residence at Habba Kadal, Srinagar, to the Mata Kheer Bhawani shrine in Tulamulla. Like most people in those days, he made the journey on foot due to the lack of public transport.

On one occasion, he applied for a day's leave to make the pilgrimage, but his senior officer rejected the application. Left with no alternative, my grandfather set out on foot in the evening, traveled through the night, paid his respects at the shrine, and returned to the office on time the following morning. A few days later, the right hand of the officer who had denied his leave became paralyzed. Whether the officer realized his mistake or connected his illness to the incident remains unknown.

Following my grandfather's early death, my father and uncle were raised by their grandfather, Pt. Ram Kaul, and their uncle, Pt. Samsar Chand Kaul. Samsar Chand was a dedicated, hardworking man married to Smt. Tarawati from the Chakoo family of Rainawari; they had five daughters and one son, Sh. Girdhari Lal Kaul, who later settled in Pathankot. My uncle, Pt. Gopi Nath Kaul, was a sharp-witted man who became the first dentist in the valley. His son, Dr. A.K. Kaul, went on to become a renowned doctor and the first graduate dental surgeon in Kashmir.

My Father’s Spiritual Beginnings and Marriage

My father, a devout Hindu, grew interested in spirituality from an early age. After completing his education, he joined the Medical Department. While posted at Budgam, he would go to the nearby river early in the morning for a bath and Sandhya Vandana while it was still dark. Observing his spiritual inclination, the great saint Swami Nand Lal Ji of Budgam—lovingly known as Mahatma Ji—noticed him on the river steps and invited him to attend evening discourse classes at his ashram next to the local temple.

My father readily accepted and never looked back. Eventually, Guru Maharaj asked him to move into the ashram permanently, alongside other disciples. My father lived there under strict discipline for several years until his eventual transfer. During his time at the ashram, he studied under a woman saint referred to as Devi (her actual name was Radhamali, a child widow and distant relative of Guru Maharaj). She was spiritually elevated and soft-spoken; my father recalled that while working in the kitchen, she would correct his Vedic recitations from behind a screen without ever showing her face. My father learned the intricacies of spirituality at his Guru’s feet, becoming his most devoted disciple.

With the permission of his Guru Maharaj—though to the reluctance of his Guru-bhai Niranjan, a lifelong celibate who attained great spiritual heights—my father married my mother, Smt. Devki Kak. My mother was a devoted homemaker and resourceful manager of our household. She was the daughter of Sh. Sham Lal Kak, an official in the Accountant General’s office who was among the valley's first graduates and a pioneer of Kashmiri theatre. Her two brothers, Sh. Amar Nath Kak and Sh. Som Nath Kak, later founded the optician business in Kashmir. Her third and youngest brother Sh. Prem Nath Kak completed M.com and choose to work in central silk Board.

My parents had five daughters and two sons. I am the youngest child, and my elder brother, Dr. V.K. Kaul, became a renowned chemical engineer and the first in our family to earn a doctorate in the discipline.

Political Unrest and the Infiltration of 1947

When my father was transferred from Budgam back to his hometown of Srinagar, he deeply missed his Guru’s presence. Soon after, miscreants set fire to the house where Guru Ji was living in Budgam. Facing the calamity with profound stoicism, Guru Ji instructed his disciples to throw ghee into the flames so it would resemble a havan. Following the incident, Guru Ji moved to Srinagar, taking up residence in a large house owned by another disciple, Sh. Sham Lal Tiku, close to our home. My father resumed his morning routine of visiting his Guru to read scriptures—notably mastering the complex Yoga Vasistha—before heading to the hospital.

Then came the aftermath of Partition and its turbulent impact on Kashmir. Tribal infiltrators, known locally as Kabalis, crossed into Kashmir, looting, killing, and committing atrocities in border areas. As panic spread, non-local staff fled, but my father remained posted as a doctor at a small hospital in a village near what is now the Line of Control (LoC). He sent our family ahead to safety in Srinagar, but he chose to stay at his post out of a sense of duty—even as Maharaja Hari Singh prepared to leave Kashmir for Jammu.

Local Muslim villagers advised my father to grow a beard so he might pass as Muslim if the infiltrators arrived. His routine was grueling: he rose early for meditation, worked at the hospital, and then traveled on horseback to treat patients in surrounding hamlets. Back in Srinagar, our family had no news of him for months and feared the worst. Yet Guru Maharaj, who loved my father like a son, visited our home daily to reassure my mother and siblings that he would return safe and sound.

The situation in the village grew precarious when a local Maulana began pressuring my father to attend the mosque, claiming all local Hindus had converted. My father plainly replied that he was not a local resident and was under no obligation to follow suit. When the pestering became daily, my father left for a nearby village to seek refuge with a Hindu saint. However, the saint advised him to return. Upon his arrival back at the village boundary, elderly villagers gathered to welcome him and firmly told the Maulana to leave him in peace.

As the Kabalis drew closer, my father entrusted his valuable belongings to a Muslim hospital orderly, with the understanding that they would be returned if all ended well. As the orderly carried two suitcases home, my father quietly followed at a distance and overheard him pray: "My Allah, grant me the opportunity to return these goods to their rightful owner." Hearing this, my father slipped away, reassured. True to his word, the orderly later returned everything intact.

When the infiltrators finally entered the village, they were furious after being misdirected away from Srinagar by Maqbool Sherwani in Baramulla. Local Muslims presented my father to them as a newly converted Muslim to protect him. The infiltrators demanded "sweet medicine," which my father provided, after which they moved on toward Srinagar. Shortly thereafter, the Indian Army arrived following Maharaja Hari Singh’s signing of the Instrument of Accession, securing the valley.

My father later on  reunited with his family in Srinagar without prior notice—safe, healthy, and with all his belongings , and was  awarded a letter of appreciation, two advance increments, and a permanent transfer back home for his steadfast duty during the crisis. He preserved that appreciation letter until we were forced to leave the valley in 1990.

Professional Life and Medical Practice

Serving as a country doctor in remote regions long before medical specialization existed required my father to handle every imaginable emergency without modern diagnostics. Diseases had to be identified purely through clinical observation and sharp intellect. Despite these limitations, the profession was driven by service rather than commercial gain. A doctor had to act as a physician, surgeon, gynecologist, pediatrician, and orthopedist all at once.

On one occasion, a Gujjar woman was brought to the hospital bleeding profusely from her head. Her scalp and skull were fractured, with brain tissue protruding through her split hair plaits. It emerged that while collecting firewood in the jungle, she had been attacked by a man; though she managed to break free, he hurled an axe at her head. With limited resources, my father and his attendant carefully cleaned the area, repositioned the skull bones, stitched the scalp, and discharged her, as the facility lacked inpatient beds. To everyone's astonishment, she made a full recovery. Treating villagers mauled by bears or leopards was also common, often drawing crowds outside the hospital gates during surgery.

Beyond hospital hours, my father traveled on horseback or by tonga to visit bedridden patients in far-off villages without charging extra fees, while medicines were provided free by the government hospital.

However, rural service carried unforeseen risks. While my father was away attending an emergency call five kilometers out, a man with a abdominal stab wound was brought to the hospital. The assistant on duty stitched the wound and discharged the patient, who tragically died on his way home. During the subsequent murder trial, the judge granted the accused the benefit of the doubt, reasoning that the victim might have survived had a qualified doctor treated him. The charge was reduced to attempted murder, and my father was held accountable for neglect of duty despite being away on official house calls. Taking the service constraints into account, the authorities dealt with the matter leniently, halting his increments for two years.

Retirement and Spiritual Legacy

After retiring at age 55 as In-Charge of the Khrew Allopathic Dispensary, my father opened a modest medical shop near his residence at Purshyar in Srinagar. Driven by his spiritual values, he provided low-cost or free treatment to the poor, turning his shop not into a commercial venture, but a service hub and a gathering place for friends and scholars.

Renowned figures like Pt. Janki Nath Kaul 'Kamal', Pt. Niranjan Nath Karihaloo (Director of the Sericulture Department), and Pt. Kanth Ram (Headmaster of the Mission School) met there daily to engage in religious and literary discourses. Pt. Janki Nath Kaul even cited my father and their discussions in several of his books. In quiet moments between patients, my father could always be found immersed in scripture.

My father lived the teachings of the Shrimad Bhagavad Gita, serving as a living embodiment of Nishkam Karma—selfless action without attachment to outcomes. Though he was a man of modest means rather than wealth, he practiced philanthropy within his capability, treating his work as an offering to the Divine.

He led a deeply fulfilled life, providing comfortably for his family while remaining unattached to worldly ambitions. His true legacy—one of goodwill, high moral character, and spiritual insight—is worth trillions, standing as a lasting source of pride for his descendants.

My Father

Once in my childhood I laid my hands on an old piece of paper depicting my family tree which started with the name of our ancestor Pt. Raja Kaul. There were many other names  of our ancestors  in descending order and lastly my grandfathers name ended the sequence. I could not understand the importance of preserving the piece of paper at that age and lost it in due course of time. Then I had a chance of reading an article in a magazine on Pt Jawahar Lal Nehru  showing family tree of Nehru family  which also started with the name of  pt. Raja Kaul as their first ancestor .  But I could not confirm whether it was a matter of coincidence that both family trees started with the same name or Pt. Raja Kaul was one and the same person in both the family trees. As I had lost my family tree document I could not compare other generations of both family trees which I deeply regret. However, list in  descending order of generations was so long in both the family trees that it was not a matter of surprise that Pt. Raja Kaul would have been one and same person to head the Kaul dynasty in Kashmir.
As far as I have heard from my elders I could recollect my  dynasty from Pt. Nand Kaul who had no child and adopted  male child from his cousin and named him Ram Kaul. Then wife of pt. Nand Kaul gave birth to her own  male child and named him pt. Amar Kaul who formed another clan of our dynasty.  Pt. Ram Kaul worked in police Dept. as a clerk and was married to Smt. Sampkuji from Labru family. Pt. Ram Kaul was a quick witted person  with a  bit  of hot  temperament  and his wife a pious and kind lady. He had two sons and two daughters. His elder son pt. Laxman Kaul, my grand father was a very  religious  and intelligent man and worked in State Excise Deptt. He was married to smt.Radhamali from Rainas  family. My Grandmother was  very beautiful and intelligent woman. They gave birth to two sons Pt. Gopi Nath Kaul and  my father Pt. Sham Lal kaul. My grandfather Pt. Laxman Kaul died very young   at  the age of  29 years only.  My father was only two years old at that time. Pt. Laxman Kaul was a  very religious man. On every  'shuklpaksh Ashtami' he used to visit Mata Kheer bhawani shrine  at Tulamula , which was approximately 25 kms away from his residence at Habba kadal Srinagar. Like most of the people ,those days,  he used to visit the shrine on foot as there was no  availability of public transport. Once he applied  for  a days leave with the same purpose, but his senior  rejected his leave application. He was left with no other alternative but to start his journey in the evening on foot and travel to and fro through out the night. After his brief  sojourn  and paying his oblations at the shrine , he reached the office on time next day. After few days the right hand of the officer who had rejected  his leave application was paralyzed. But it is not known whether the officer  realized his mistake or at least connected his sickness with the above mentioned  incident or not. Due to the death of my Grandfather at an early age, my father and my uncle were brought up by their grandfather Pt.Ram Kaul and  uncle Pt.Samsar Chand Kaul, a dedicated and hard working man who was married to  smt.Tarawati from  chakoo family of Rainawari. They  had five daughters and a Son. The name of their son is Sh.Girdhari Lal Kaul who is settled at pathankot.
My uncle Pt. Gopi nath Kaul was a sharp witted and intelligent person who was first Dentist in the valley. His Son Dr. A.K.Kaul was a renowned Doctor and first graduate dental surgeon in the valley.
My father a devout Hindu got interested  in spirituality right from his childhood. After completing his education he joined medical department. Once on duty at Badgam Kashmir,  he was praying on the river bank early in the morning, a great saint  Swami Nand Lal ji of Badgam, who was lovingly called Mahatma ji  noticed him and advised him to join his teaching classes in the evening. My father most readily accepted his offer and started joining his classes and never looked back. Then my father became his most devoted desiple  and learned the delicacies of spirituality under his feet. My father lived a full satisfied life of a family man taking full responsibility of a family but remained aloof from the  worldly affairs. He was living example of spiritual virtues and embodiment of values envisaged by Gita.
My parents gave birth to five daughters and two sons. I am the youngest in family and my elder brother Dr.V.K.Kaul is a renowned chemical engineer and first doctorate in chemical engineering from our family.
Now reverting back to the life of my father,  my father got  married to Devki KaK,  my mother, after getting permission from his Guru Mahraj but to the much reluctance of his Guru Bai Niranjan , who remained a celibate through out his life and crossed the heights in the field of spirituality.  My mother was a devoted hoyse wife and a resourceful lady who used to manage all the affairs of our family. She was the daughter Sh. Sham Lal KaK,  who was among the first graduates in valley and one of poineers in theatre  in Kashmir . He was working in Accountant Generals office. His two sons Sh.Amar Nath KaK and Sh.Som Nath KaK were founders of optician business in Kashmir. 
Then my father was transfered from badgam to Sringar , his home town but  he felt there  absence of his Guru Mahraj very much. In the meantime destiny played it's own part and the house in which Guru ji was living in Budgam was put on fire by some miscreants . Guru ji faced the incident most stoically and even told his desciples to throw some  ghee in fire to make  it look  like a performance of a hawan. Then Guru ji shifted to Srinagar to live in a big house  of his another desciple Sh.Sham Lal tiku, which was not far away from our residence.  Then my father  used to visit his Guru's place again early in the morning for reading shastaras before going to hospital. During these days my father understood the delicacies of 'Yog vaishisht' , a difficult shastra to comprehend,   under the feet of his Guru Mahraj. 
Then It was the aftermath of partition between India and Pakistan and its impact on Kashmir .  Pakistan had sent Tribal infiltrators known as Kabalis inside Kashmir to capture it.  Kabalis were looting, killing Hindus  and raping their women in the border areas of Kashmir. The whole of Kashmir was burning under the Pakistani sponsored proxy  war through  these tribal invaders.   All the people especially Hindus were running helter skelter to save their lives.  In this melancholic atmosphere my father, a devout hindu was posted in a small village near present LOC as a doctor in local hospital.  All the Hindu non local staff  had left the  station with their families, except my father, who was running the hospital with the help of local staff. However, he had sent his family to Srinagar already.  My father did not leave the station as he happened to be more loyal than King as then king of Kashmir Mahraja Hari singh had already made arrangements to leave Kashmir for Jammu  with all  his immovable property in a chartered plane , and which he did soon.
My father was advised by some local Muslims to grow  beard so that he will be taken for a Muslim in case kabalis enter their village. My father used to have a busy schedule. He would rise early  in the morning  and after attending natural calls and having a bath, he would go for meditatation. Then after taking breakfast he had to attend hospital. After hospital  chores , he would visit patients in near by villages on a horse back. His family at Srinagar was very anxious as they had no news about him for months together.
One day after attending his hectic schedule,  my father was looking gloomy because some molvi of the local mosque had advised him to attend the mosque tomorrow as all the local hindus have been converted to Islam.  But my father told the Moulvi plainly that he doesn't belong to this village and he is not obliged to do what local Hindus have decided to do. Then this  Moulvi started pestering my father daily with the same suggestion.  My father got sick of it and left  the village for another near by village, where a Hindu saint lived. My father told the saint that he wanted to stay with him for some days. But saint advised my father that he should go back to his own village. While returning, when my father reached the border of his village in the evening, most of the elderly villagers had gathered there to welcome my father who later on rebuked the Moulvi and advised him not to pester my father any  more.
As the kabalis had approached nearer to village, my father decided to handover all his valuable belongings to a  Muslim orderly of Hospital with the condition that if every thing was alright, latter will return the goods. When orderly was carrying these belongings to his home in two suitcases, my father followed him with out the knowledge of former. My father overheard him saying to himself,  My Allah, please bestow me with an opportunity to return these goods to its real owner. Listening these words my father left the place of orderly unheard.
Later on this orderly returned all the goods to my father.
One day Kabalis entered the village, where my father was posted. They were very angry as they had lost the way to Srinagar. As after heavy lootmar and rapes at Baramulla some Maqbool Sherwani had put them on a wrong route , when they asked him to advise them shortest route to Srinagar.
Therefore, they hastily visited the Hospital accompanied by local Muslims. The local Muslims introduced my father to them as newly converted Muslim. They asked my father to serve them with some sweet Medicine, which my father readily offered to them. Then they proceeded again towards  Srinagar,  where they never reached.  Because till then Indian army had approached Kashmir and Mahraja Hari Singh had signed the treaty of annexing state of  Jammu and Kashmir with India.
In the mean time, when my father was discharging his frontier duty , his family was very much worried about his welfare as there was no news of him for months together . The means of communication  was very meagre those  days. They had lost all hope of him. But Guru Mahraj , who treated my father as his son would daily visit our house to enquire about any information received regarding him . He would console my mother and other siblings that my father will come home safe and sound. 
Then one day. due to the blessings of Guru Mahraj.  my father reached home  with out any pre information,   to  join his family , hale and hearty and with all his belongings  to the surprise of one and all. My father was then awarded a letter of appreciation, two increments in advance and transfer to his home place Srinagar as a reward for not leaving the station in crisis and turmoil. The appreciation letter was with my father until we left valley in 1990 with out our belongings.
           My father while serving as a country Doctor had various experiences in remote areas of Kashmir  and that too a very  long ago when specialisation in the field was unknown in city  Hospitals also. Doctor with whatever little knowledge had to be ready to deal with any exigency which ever may  arise  in the area. Those days pathological and diagnostic tests were not available and even if available in a rudimentary   form and  were sparsely in vouge  even in city Hospitals . The disease had to be diagnosed on  its symptoms only . The Doctor had to rack his brains and use his intelligence in order to track the disease . This  exercise however used to sharpen  the  faculties of Doctor towards  better diagnosis. The only silver lining  in this  occupation was that it was purely professional and was not commercial  like these days. The Doctor would get satisfaction from his profession by correct diagnosis and treatment of the patient rather than deriving pecuniary benefits out of it. Moreover, Doctor had to be all-rounder those days. He had to be a physician, surgeon, Gynocologist, child specialist and bone specialist all in one as he had to deal any type of patient any time.  
Once  a gujjar woman bleeding profusely from  her head    was brought in to  the Hospital by few persons.  When my father with the help of his attendant looked into the wound, the case appeared prima facie  hopeless​. The sclap and skull bone  were broken into  two pieces and brain was protruding out of it . The two hair plaits of woman had spread apart making a way for  internal mass  . It  later on transpired that woman in  question had gone for collecting fuel wood from Jungle and some male  gujjar had caught hold of her to satisfy his biological need.  The woman had managed to frisk away from his grip  and ran away. But the  Gujjar had chased her frantically and in a fit of rage hurled  his axe on her sclap and left her wounded and bleeding.  Then few good persons after hearing  her frantic calls had brought her to hospital.
My father  and whatever little staff available with him  had no other option but to attend the exigency. They simply tried to stuff the portion of  brain  hanging outside back into her head after cutting some mass of flesh. Then they manually arranged to join the two pieces of   her skull bone, which were spread apart. After few stitches on his sclap she was discharged as there was no indoor facility available  in the Hospital. After few days she recovered to the surprise of one and all. Mostly villagers bitten by bears or leapords in the jungle  were usual cases attended by my  father in the Hospital. Whole of the village would assemble outside the Hospital gates , whenever there was such type of operation going on inside.
After  duty  hours  at the Hospital , my father would attend patients who were bed ridden in far flung areas on horseback or Tonga as per schedule. This was also a part of the duty of my father as no other Doctor was available in the whole area. My father never charged anyone for extra services provided by him as the patients were mostly poor peasants living around. The medicine was also available to them free of cost from Govt. Hospital.
One day my father received a call  to attend an emergency case  in another village about 5 Kms away from the village where Hospital was located.     In the mean time a person was stabbed by another  in  the abdomen and victim was brought to Hospital for treatment. As my father had already left for another village, assistant present in the Hospital attended to  the patient and after stitching his wound discharged him. But patient died in the way  while going to his  home.
Then after apprehending the culprit by police a murder  case was lodged against him in the District court. After many hearings which were attended by my father and his colleagues also, the judge gave decision in favour of culprit by giving  benefit of doubt to him. The Judge opined that victim was treated  at the Hospital by an attendant only as House Doctor was absent from duty. Had the victim  been attended by a qualified Doctor, he might  have survived and therefore culprit can not be punished for murder charges. The culprit was  however, charged for attempt to murder only, which subsequently lessened the punishment of culprit substantially. Moreover, Doctor was held  responsible for  neglect of duty  despite of his pleadings that he was liable to attend the patients of surrounding area also. Taking cognizance  of the circumstances  on account of  exigency  of service which kept my father out of Hospital  at the material time and viewing the case leniently, increment of my father was stopped for two  years.

My father after retirement, at the age of fifty five only, as Incharge of Khrew Alopathic Dispensary opened a medical shop near his residence at Purshyar locality in Srinagar city. He started practicing medicine and providing medical services at his shop to all locals at  very low charges due to his spiritual insight and background. Sometimes he would provide free medical assistance and  services to poor and needy . Therefore, most of the locals became his permanent customers. It was not a commercial  but mere a sustenance venture and a pastime hub of  my father. Moreover,  being a thorough gentleman and honest to the core, his customers and all the shopkeepers around respected him very much. It was not only customers but most of his acquaintances , who were of allied nature would visit his shop on daily basis for religious discussions. It also became a meeting place for most of his retired childhood  friends. Pt. Janki Nath Kaul ' Kamal ' , a renowned religious scholar , Pt.Niranjan Nath Karihaloo , director of Sericuture dept. , Pt. Kanth Ram, head master of Mission School and many more  scholars and like minded people. They  started visiting his shop almost on daily basis  . My father after attending his patients would also indulge with them in religious and literary discourses and discussions . Pt. Janki Nath Kaul ' Kamal ' has given reference of my father and crux of their discussions   in many of his religious books, which he authored later on. Whenever there were no patients and friends at his shop, he would mostly be seen  involved in reading religious  scriptures. 
As already mentioned actually religious journey of my father started at very young age, when he was a bachelor and newly posted at Badgam village . He used to visit a river  near by for a bath and sandhya vandana early in the morning , when it was quite dark. One day a  great saint Sh. Nand Lal ji Mahraj, who later on became his Guru  , found him on  the stairs of river and after observing his spiritual bent of mind asked him , if  he was intrested in reading religious  scriptures, then he should visit my ashram in the evenings . My father readily accepted his offer and started visiting his ashram which was adjacent to local temple of Budgam. After sometime,  his Guru asked him to stay with him permanently in the ashram as   many other disciples of Guru Mahraj  were  living there. Then my father started living  in ashram under the  full discipline and curriculum of Ashram for many more years until his transfer. But Guru shisha legacy remained alive until the death of his Guru Mahraj. Here it will be worthwhile to mention about a woman saint usually called Devi , whom I have also met was Guru bahen of my father. Her actual name was Radhamali , who  was  a child widow and distant relative of Guru Mahraj .She also used to stay in the ashram at budgam and had churned out into a great saint. She was very soft spoken and spiritually elevated. My father told me that she while working  in kitchen, used to correct my  recitation of vedas in ashram days  with out showing her face to me.
I had seen my father daily reciting the verses of Shrimadbagwadgita. It was not only receiting but he had become the embodiment of its virtues and personification of its ideals. He was not a millionaire but ordinary middle class person  He did philonothropy in his own way and within his means . In other way he attributed his actions and services towards the almighty . He did actions for  sustenance of himself and his family only and beyond that  he would help the needy and provided  his services free of cost to the  poor. He never involved himself in the bondage of his actions and remained absorbed  in Nishkam karma. 
Most of the patients always remained obliged to my father because of his spiritual  attitude and healing touch in his hands while treating them. 
My father could not make millions but he lived his life most satisfactorily and in peaceful manner. He was not much  ambitious person but his needs were taken care of by the Almighty quite comfortably. 
 His  legacy of goodwill, high moral character and spiritual insight is worth trillions and a matter of pride for his descendants and acquaintances.  




Wednesday, 9 September 2026

Shivoham

Shivoham Shivoham

This text is a Kashmiri translation of Adi Shankaracharya’s famous Sanskrit hymn, Atma Shatakam (also known as Nirvana Shatakam), which reflects on the nature of the true Self, transcending physical form, emotion, and worldly ties to realize oneness with the Divine.

Below is the English translation following each stanza:

न मन छुस न बुदि न चित अहंकार न कन, जेव न नेत्र न छुस वायुदार न जल छुस न पृथवी न दजुवुन भ नार न पचं भूत न इंद्री नय प्राण आधार सदा पोशवुन युस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

I am not the mind, intellect, memory, or ego; I am not the ears, tongue, eyes, or air. I am not water, earth, nor the burning fire; I am not the five elements, the senses, nor the breath that sustains life. I am ever-flourishing: I am Shiva, I am Shiva.

न छुम दीष रागय न लोबय न मोहय न कान्ह मे गर्व छुम न ईरषा थवान छुस न धर्म न मोखशिच कामना करान छुस न कामय न भेय काहं वासना रछान छुस अनादि अनंत युस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

I have no hatred or attachment, no greed or delusion; I hold no pride, nor do I harbor jealousy. I desire neither righteousness nor liberation; I harbor no worldly longings or desires. Beginningless and endless: I am Shiva, I am Shiva.

न पुन्नी न पापय, न सोख दोख हेवान छुस न मंत्र जपान छुस न तीर्थ करान छुस न वीदय परान छुस न यज्ञय करान छुस न भोजन भ छुस न भोक्ता भ आसान जगत चेन्वन छुस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

I accumulate neither virtue nor sin, nor do I take pleasure or pain; I chant no mantras, nor do I go on pilgrimages. I read no Vedas, nor do I perform rituals; I am neither the food, nor the consumer, nor the act of enjoying the world. I am Shiva, I am Shiva.

न मृत्यू न शॅका न छुम जाति भेदय न छुस माजि या मालिस भ जामुत न गोरय न शिशय न कान्ह मित्र थवान छुस न जामुत न प्यामुत न भधंय न भान्धव शून्यस मन्ज शून्नी छुस शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

I have no fear of death, no doubts, and no discrimination of caste; I was not born to any mother or father. I have no teacher, no disciple, nor any friend; I am unborn, untouched by fall, bound by no tie or kin. I am the void within the void: I am Shiva, I am Shiva.

निराकार रुप भेय अदैत सरुप छुस परम आनदंस मंज रोजान जरुर छुस न मुख्तय न बन्दय , पृथ जाय भूय छुस न नावय न आकार , परम सत्य भूy छुस चिदान्द रूपय शिवय छुस शिवय छुस

I am formless, the embodiment of non-duality; I dwell eternally in supreme bliss. I am neither bound nor liberated—I pervade every space; Without name or shape, I am the ultimate truth. I am pure consciousness and bliss: I am Shiva, I am Shiva.

zindagi ke bemaniye dayre

 ज़िंदगी के बे-मानी दायरों से परेशान हो गए हैं हम। यह हर बार एक ही राह चुनने से पशेमान हो गए हैं हम।

Translation: We have grown tired of the meaningless circles of life. We have come to regret choosing the exact same path every single time.

यह रोज़-रोज़ दोहराए हुए वाक़यात से बहुत नफ़रत सी हो गई। कुछ नया कर गुज़रने की और नयी सोच की चाहत सी हो गई। यह सिलसिलावार तक़ाज़ों से मजबूर हो गए हैं हम। ज़िंदगी के बे-मानी दायरों से परेशान हो गए हैं हम।

Translation: I have developed a deep dislike for these daily repeating events. A desire has awakened to achieve something new and embrace fresh thinking. We have become helpless before these continuous, ongoing demands. We have grown tired of the meaningless circles of life.

वह बचपन के खिलवाड़ और वह जवानी के मरहले। और हसीनों से मिलने और बिछड़ने के वह सिलसिले। यह तरतीबवार फ़सानों से बहुत ऊब गए हैं हम। ज़िंदगी के बे-मानी दायरों से परेशान हो गए हैं हम।

Those playful antics of childhood and those phases of youth, And that series of meeting and parting ways with beautiful souls— We have grown thoroughly bored of these sequential tales. We have grown tired of the meaningless circles of life.

हर सिम्त वह माशी मसाइल और अयाली मरहलों के इज्तिमा। वह रोज़-रोज़ की हिमाक़तों को सुधारने के लिए नासेह की सलाह। यह बार-बार ज़िंदगी के इम्तिहानों से आजिज़ से आ गए हैं हम। ज़िंदगी के बे-मानी दायरों से परेशान हो गए हैं हम।

Translation: In every direction, there is a cluster of financial troubles and family obligations. And the advisor's counsel offered daily to fix routine foolish acts. We have become completely exhausted by these repeated tests of life. We have grown tired of the meaningless circles of life.

इस बेचैन ज़िंदगी में कोई नयी बात न रह गई है अब। वही करना है हमें भी जो उम्र भर करते रहे हैं सब। तंग आ चुके हैं ज़िंदगी के याद-ए-रफ्तगाँ के तज़किरों से हम। ज़िंदगी के बे-मानी दायरों से परेशान हो गए हैं हम।

Nothing novel remains anymore in this restless existence. We too must spend our lives doing what everyone else has always done. We are fed up with remembering and talking about memories of the past. We have grown tired of the meaningless circles of life.

लगता है ज़िंदगी से समझौता ही करना पड़ेगा अब। और ज़िंदगी के सिद्धांतों को तसलीम करेंगे फिर कब? ख़फ़ा रहे हैं ज़िंदगी से अब तक बेवजह ही हम। ज़िंदगी के बे-मानी दायरों से परेशान हो गए हैं हम।

It seems we will simply have to compromise with life now. After all, when else will we accept the fundamental rules of living? We remained upset with life until now without any real reason. We have grown tired of the meaningless circles of life.

Mere valid

  • Mere Valid 

  • तेरी बेलौस शफ़क़त का जो मुझ पर था बेशक़ीमत साया। मेरे वालिद मेरे रहबर, तेरे जीते जी मैं तुझे पहचान न पाया।

  • The priceless shadow of your selfless affection that protected me— My father, my guide, I failed to truly appreciate you while you were alive.

  • तूने दिखावे के लिए न किया कभी मुझ से मोहब्बत का इज़हार। शायद इसीलिए रहा मैं नादानियों की वजह से तुमसे बेज़ार।

  • You never expressed your love for show or display; Perhaps that is why, in my ignorance, I remained distant and resentful.
  •  तूने नज़्म-ओ-ज़ब्त की जो तर्बियत से हमें नवाज़ा था, ज़िंदगी से रूबरू होने के हुनर का वही दरवाज़ा था।

  • The discipline and upbringing with which you blessed us Was the very gateway to mastering the art of facing life.

  •  तेरी रूहानियत की तक्मील और लियाक़त से हम सदा रहे ग़ाफ़िल। इसलिए हम ने कोशिशों के बावजूद, इस अवज कुछ न किया हासिल।

  •  I remained forever unaware of your spiritual perfection and true competence; That is why, despite all efforts, I achieved so little in this regard.
  • यह जो हमने अपने वजूद से थोड़ा सा भी किया है इंसाफ़, यह तेरी ही इनायत है हम पर, और तेरे ही हैं औसाफ़।

  • Whatever little justice I have managed to do for my own existence, It is purely your grace upon me and a reflection of your noble qualities.


  •  तूने मेरी ख़ातिर क़ुर्बानी दी अपनी ज़रूरत की, मैं ग़ाफ़िल रहा हरदम अपनी ही हसरत में।

  • You sacrificed your own needs for my sake, While I remained constantly lost and absorbed in my own desires.

          मेरे मोहसिन, मेरे आक़ा और मेरे बंदा-परवर, तूने हर शय               रखी मेरे लिए पल भर में मयस्सर।

  • My benefactor, my master, and my caring guardian— You made every single thing available to me in a heartbeat.
  • बहुत देर के बाद मुझे एहसास हुआ तेरी अज़मत का, जब मैं खुद वालिद बना और क़ायल हुआ तेरी रहमत का।

  • It was only after a long time that I realized your true greatness— When I became a father myself and came to deeply acknowledge your grace.

Noore Nazar

 दिल माइल है इतना उस नूरे-नज़र पे, वो सब पे नज़र रखते हैं हम उन पे।

My heart is so inclined toward that light of my sight (beloved); while they keep an eye on everyone, my eyes are fixed only on them.

चले आते है वह चुपके से ख्वाबो मे रातभर, दिल शाद है मेरा उनकी इस मेहर पे।

They quietly slip into my dreams all night long; my heart is overjoyed by this grace of theirs.

 दीवानगी का हाल न पूछो मेरी उनसे, सजदे ही बिछा दिए हैं हर एक गुज़र पे।

Do not ask them about the extent of my madness; I have laid down prostrations of love along every path they walk.

 हर सांस में महकी है उन्हीं की ही हसीं याद, हम जी भी रहे हैं तो बस उनके असर पे।

Their beautiful memory fragrantly lingers in every breath; if I am living at all, it is solely under their influence.

तूफां में भी ढूंढ ही लेती है जो राहें, अब कोई नहीं ख़ौफ़ तबाही के सफ़र पे।

My heart finds its way even in the midst of storms; there is no longer any fear on this journey toward destruction.

'रमेश' अब तू छुपाए न छुपा अपना ये आफ़ात, सब जान गए दर्द तेरा चेहरे के असर पे।

'Ramesh', no matter how much you try to hide your plight, everyone has recognized your pain from the expression on your face.

Friday, 4 September 2026

Abinav Gupt krit Om vyapt charachar

Om Vyaft charachar

The Kashmiri and English Translation of Abinav Gupt's Shiv astuti written originally by him in Sanskrit. Abinav Gupt was a great scholar of Kashmiri Shaivism, who is said to have left this  mortal world  by entering into a cave near Beervah, Kashmir alongwith his twelve hundred desciples while singing this  Shiv astuti. ' Aum vyaft charachar bhav vishesham chinmayam ekam,  anantam,anadiyam bhairav nathe anatham Sharanyam. 

 The Kashmir Shaivism philosophy deeply emphasizes the non-dual nature of Consciousness (Paramashiva), where the entire universe is viewed as a manifestation of the Supreme.


Stanza 1 युस थलि थलि छु सारिसय बृम्माहडस मन्ज रोजान युस ग्यान रुप छु, कुनुय छु, अनादि अनन्त छु आसान युस भैरव स्वामी छु बेय युस अनाथन शरण छु दिवान भु छुस तस शिवस पजि मन सीती नमन करान

Translation: He who resides in every place throughout the entire universe, Who is the embodiment of knowledge, unique and singular, without beginning or end, Who is Lord Bhairava and the refuge of the helpless— To that Shiva, I bow down with all my heart and pure mind.

Stanza 2 यी बृम्माहंड छु चोनुय रुप आसान यि छु मे चानि अनुगृहि सीत भासान मगर चुय छुख म्यैन आत्मा आसान तवय छु ये बृमाहन्ड मे पनु नुय रुप भासान यौहय छु मे पनुन अनुभव वनान

Translation: This universe is indeed your very form, Which appears to me only through your divine grace. Yet, you yourself are my true Self (Atman); Therefore, this entire cosmos feels like my own body. This is what my personal inner realization reveals to me.

Stanza 3 दोख त मोह पृकट करन वालिन करमन मन्ज फंसेमित लोख छी यी वनान संसार छु, ही नाथ, चोनुय रुप, तवय छिन संसारकेन दुखन तिम खोचान यलि चुय छुख सौर्य, चानि वराय छुन कान्ह आसान तेलि कान्ह डर छुन चानेन भक्तेन भासान

Translation: People trapped in karmas that manifest pain and illusion say this, Oh Lord, the world is your form; hence, they no longer fear worldly afflictions. When you are everything, and nothing exists apart from you, No fear whatsoever can touch your devotees.

Stanza 4 ही यमराज क्रोध सान कराल नजीरि मे कुन म आस वुछान बु छूस हर सात शिव चिन्तनस मन्ज मन सान लगिथ आसान यमि सीवाय किन भ भैरव शक्ति सीत छुस जुडिथ चानि करूध कराल नजर हेकि न मे केन्ह ति करिथ

Translation: Oh Yamaraja, do not gaze upon me with your fierce, angry eyes. I am continuously absorbed in the contemplation of Lord Shiva with all my mind and heart. Because I am united with the divine power of Bhairava, Your wrathful, terrifying look can do me no harm.

Stanza 5 ही शिव सोरय बृम्माडं छु चोनय सोरूप मे भासान यी जानिथ छु अग्यानुक अन्धकार मे खत्म गछान तवय छुस न भ यमराजस या भूत पेशाचस केन्ह ति खोचान. ही नाथ चेय छुय म्येन नमस्कार भारम्भार आसान.

Translation: Oh Shiva, the whole universe appears to me as your direct form. Knowing this, the darkness of my ignorance has completely vanished; Hence, I fear neither Yamaraja nor ghosts and evil spirits. Oh Lord, to you, I bow down repeatedly.

Stanza 6 ही शिव चानेन सत्गोन रुपकेव पृवव हंदि बहान सारी बर्माडक तत्त्व त बेय पदार्थ छी हरकतस मंज ईवान ईथयकनि अम्मी ग्यान कि पृकट गछन सीत छुस भ शरदायि होन्द अमृत चवान बेय योहय चोनुy सरूप छुस पननि आत्माय मन्ज अनुभव करान

Translation: Oh Shiva, through the rays of your qualities and cosmic play, All elements and objects of the universe come into motion. Thus, with the revelation of this wisdom, I drink the nectar of devotion, And experience this divine nature of yours within my own soul.

Stanza 7 यलि शरीरस ताप बडावुनच कष्ट दशा छुस मन सीत मेहसूस करान तमी सात छु मे चानि अनुग्रह सीत प्राप्त अकि अभेद वृष्टि होन्द उदय सपदान यमि की प्रभाव सीत छुस न भ कान्ह कष्ट अनुभव करान

Translation: Whenever I feel a state of suffering or physical distress in my mind, At that very moment, by your grace, a vision of non-duality (abheda) dawns within me. Under its profound impact, I no longer experience any pain at all.

Stanza 8 यलि वृत दान या तप सीत छु यमि संसार केन दुखन होन्द नाश सपदान शिव शास्त्र की चिन्तन मात्र सीत छु मनस मन्ज अमर्त्य धाराय बहान ही शंकर चानि दर्शन सीत छु म्यान रुम रुम गाहे नचान त गाहे ग्यवान

Translation: While fasts, charity, or penance destroy the sorrows of this world, By mere reflection on the Shaiva scriptures, a stream of immortality flows within the mind. Oh Shankara, upon beholding your vision, every pore of my body sometimes dances and sometimes sings.

Stanza 9 अभिनव गुप्त छु यि शिव असुत्त्ती संवत 68 पोष कृष्न पक्ष दहम दोह ग्यवान यमिकi गवुन या उच्चारण मात्र सीत छु शंकर खेनस मन्ज तार दिवान

Translation: Abhinavagupta sings this Shiv Stuti on the tenth day of the dark fortnight of Pausha in the year 68 (Saptarshi calendar). By merely singing or reciting this hymn, Lord Shankara grants liberation across the ocean of existence.


Saturday, 29 August 2026

Woh Raakh muje Lota Do



वह राख मुझे लौटा दो


 Return that ash to me

 वह मेरे पुरखों की जागीर, वह मेरा पूरा कश्मीर, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me the estate/legacy of my ancestors, return to me my complete Kashmir.

 वह मेरी विरासत मेरा ख्वाब, वह मेरा चौधवीं का महताब, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me my heritage, my dream, and my full moon (light).

 वह मेरी ज़मीन वह मेरी जान, जिसे कहते थे शारदा धाम, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me my land, my life/soul, which was called Sharda Dhaam.

 वह मेरी विरासत मेरी तक़दीर, जिसमें रहते थे संत फ़कीर, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me my heritage, my destiny, where saints and ascetics once resided.

 वह कश्यप ऋषि का बसाया शहर, जो कहलाता था कश्यपमर, मुझे लौटा दो।

  Translation: Return to me the city settled by Rishi Kashyap, which was known as Kashyapmar.

 जहाँ अभिनवगुप्त ने दिया शिव का ज्ञान, जिसको माना पूरा हिंदुस्तान, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me the place where Abhinavagupta imparted the knowledge of Shiva, revered by all of India.

 जहाँ आदिशंकर को मिला था शक्ति का  ज्ञान, वह कश्मीर मुझे लौटा दो।

  Translation: Return to me that Kashmir where Adi Shankara attained the  knowledge of Shakti.

जहाँ रहता था पंडित ऋषिपीर, जिसने औरंगज़ेब को दी थी मात, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me the place where Pandit Rishi Peer lived, who outwitted/defeated Aurangzeb.

वह मेरे खेत मेरे खलिहान, वह सेबों और अखरोटों के बागान, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me my fields, my threshing yards, and those orchards of apples and walnuts.

 वह मेरा क्षीर भवानी का स्थान, जो था मेरा दिल और जान, मुझे लौटा do। 

Translation: Return to me my sacred abode of Kheer Bhawani, which was my heart and soul.

वह शंकराचार्य का मंदिर और वह हरि पर्वत का स्थान, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me the Shankaracharya Temple and the sacred site of Hari Parbat.

वह मेरे बर्फानी बाबा जिसे कहते हैं अमरनाथ, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me my Snow-Clad Lord (Barfani Baba), known as Amarnath.

वह मेरे वितस्ता के सुंदर घाट, जहाँ पर थे मेरे मंदिर और मकान, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me the beautiful banks of the Vitasta (Jhelum) river, where my temples and home used to stand.

 मेरी खोई हुई वह साख, मेरे आबा-ओ-अजदाद की राख, मुझे लौटा दो। 

Translation: Return to me my lost dignity/reputation, and the ashes of my ancestors.

 वह मेरे ख्वाबों की ताबीर, जिसे कहते हैं कश्मीर, मुझे लौटा दो। Translation: Return to me the realization of my dreams, which is called Kashmir.

रमेश कौल

Friday, 28 August 2026

woh dehshat ki raat



वो वहशत की रात

​कैसे भूल सकते हैं हम कश्मीर में गुज़ारी वो वहशत की रात।

​घरों में बत्तियां बुझा के, दुबके और सहमे से हम खड़े थे।

कब दरवाज़ा तोड़ के अंदर घुसेंगे

इसी ख़ौफ़ में पड़े थे।

ज़िंदगी और इज्ज़त हमारी दांव पर लगी थी और वो दहशत की रात।

कैसे भूल सकते हैं हम कश्मीर में गुज़ारी वो वहशत की रात।

How can we ever forget that night of terror spent in Kashmir?

Turning off the lights in our homes, we stood huddled and terrified.

Trapped in the constant fear of when they would break down the door and burst inside.

Our lives and honor were on the line during that horrifying night.

How can we ever forget that night of terror spent in Kashmir?

​सड़कों और गलियों में लोगों के बहुत हजूम से खड़े थे।

इतना शोर-ओ-गुल हर जगह और हमारे ख़िलाफ़ नारे लगते बड़े थे।

इंसान पर जब शैतान नाज़िल हो चुका था वो सितमत की रात।

कैसे भूल सकते हैं हम कश्मीर में गुज़ारी वो वहशत की रात।

Huge crowds of people were gathered in the streets and alleys.

There was so much noise and clamor everywhere, with loud slogans raised against us.

It was a night of cruelty, when the devil had descended upon humanity.

How can we ever forget that night of terror spent in Kashmir?

​कश्मीर छोड़ दो, या इस्लाम अपनाओ या रहो मरने को तैयार।

ये नारे हर तरफ़ बुलंद थे और ऊंघते थे ऐसे, जैसे हो सयार।

दफ़न हो रहे थे सब अरमान हमारे और वो ज़ुल्मत की रात।

कैसे भूल सकते हैं हम कश्मीर में गुज़ारी वो वहशत की रात।

"Leave Kashmir, accept Islam, or prepare to die."

These chants echoed everywhere, and they prowled like jackals.

All our hopes and dreams were being buried in that night of darkness.

How can we ever forget that night of terror spent in Kashmir?

​उस रात को हमारे सदियों के सपने मिस्मार हो गए।

एक ही झटके में हम अपने जन्नत-ए-कश्मीर से बेघर हो गए।

कितनी वहशत से गुज़ारी है हमने वो दोज़ख़ बने जन्नत की रात।

कैसे भूल सकते हैं हम कश्मीर में गुज़ारी वो वहशत की रात।

That night, our centuries-old dreams were reduced to ruins.

In a single stroke, we were rendered homeless from our paradise, Kashmir.

With such terror we passed that night in a paradise turned into hell.

How can we ever forget that night of terror spent in Kashmir?

​बहुत अर्सा गुज़र चुका और अब तक न वापस जा सके हम।

बेचैन रहता है ये दिल, कैसे अपनी मिट्टी वापस ला सके हम।

हकूमती नाकामयाबी और ना-अहली की मज़म्मत की वो रात।

कैसे भूल सकते हैं हम कश्मीर में गुज़ारी वो वहशत की रात।

A long time has passed, yet we haven't been able to return.

This heart remains restless, yearning for how we might reclaim our homeland.

That night stands as a condemnation of government failure and incompetence.

How can we ever forget that night of terror spent in Kashmir?

Thursday, 27 August 2026

Raze Sanatan

राज़-ए-सनातन

जिंदगी रहती है कहाँ, तौफ़ीक़ और तौसीह के वसायिल हों जहाँ। और मौत रहती है वहाँ सिकुड़ने और सिमटने के मसायिल हों जहाँ।

Where does life truly exist? Where the means of divine grace and expanse are found. And death resides where problems of shrinking and confinement abound.

हम तो वसुधैव कुटुम्बकम के नारे में यक़ीन रखते हैं। यह दुनिया के ख़लक़ एक ही अयाल हैं इस बात का दम भरते हैं।

We believe in the slogan of Vasudhaiva Kutumbakam (the world is one family). We hold fast to the conviction that all the creatures of this world belong to a single family.

हम अपनी ही बहबूदी को तरजीह देने को अज़ीयत समझते हैं। दूसरों के लिए सोचने को ही तो हम इबादत और अक़ीदत कहते हैं।

We consider prioritizing only our own welfare to be a form of self-torment. Caring for others is what we call true worship and devotion.

हमें गलतफ़हमी है कि हम सब से अलग हैं इस दुनिया में। यह सोचकर हम अपनी दुनियावी पहचान से अलग होते हैं।

 We harbor a misconception that we are separate from everyone else in this world. By thinking this way, we detach ourselves from our true worldly identity.

और भूल जाते हैं कि एक आफ़ाक़ी क़ुव्वत हमें आपस में मिलाती है। कायनात का हर जिस्म और हर रूह हमें यकजेहती का अहसास दिलाती है।

 And we forget that a cosmic power unites us together. Every body and every soul in the universe makes us feel this oneness.

इसलिए हम किसी और से नफ़रत कैसे कर सकते हैं। जितनी मोहब्बत अपनों से है उतनी ही मोहब्बत ग़ैर से भी करते हैं।

How then could we ever hate anyone else? We love strangers just as deeply as we love our own.

हमें अपनी सोच, रुतबे या जिस्म से अपनी पहचान हटानी है। और उस लाफ़ानी और वसीह शय से अपनी पहचान बनानी है।

We must separate our identity from our thoughts, status, or physical body, And define our true self through that immortal, infinite Reality.

हम अपने ही हाथों से रेशम के कीड़े की तरह एक जाल बुनते हैं। और अपने ही आमाल की वजह से ही उसी जाल में फँसते 

Like a silkworm, we weave a web with our own hands, And get trapped inside that very net because of our own actions.

ख़ुदग़र्ज़ी से नहीं बल्कि बेलौस किरदार से जिंदगी में चैन आता है। सारी नफ़रत मिट जाती है और कितना क़रार और सुकून आ जाता है।

 Peace in life comes not from selfishness, but from a selfless character. All hatred melts away, bringing immense calmness and comfort.

जिस्म फ़ानी है और यह रूह लाफ़ानी है कहता है सनातन। और उस वसीह नूर का जलवा ही रहता है समाया कण-कण।

Sanatan teaches that the body is mortal and the soul is immortal, And the divine light of that infinite radiance resides in every single particle.

हमारी क़दीमी विरासत का फ़लसफ़ा है यह सनातन। जिसके आग़ोश में वेद और उपनिषदों का हुआ है मंथन।

Sanatan is the core philosophy of our ancient heritage, In whose embrace the deep churnings of the Vedas and Upanishads took place.

हर नई सोच और जदीदी खोज में मिलेंगे इसी के अनासिर। बदलेगा ज़रूर तुम्हारा मंतक़ जब रह जाओगे इसी का बनकर।

 The elements of this wisdom will be found in every new thought and modern discovery. Your logic will surely transform once you become completely immersed in it.


Raze Ulfat

राज़-ए-उल्फ़त (The Secret of Love)

​हमने कुछ भी न रखा था तवक्क़ो तुमसे

तुमने यूँ ही क़ता किया है ताल्लुक़ हमसे।

I expected nothing at all from you,

Yet you severed your connection with me just like that.

​हम तो मजबूर थे जो हुई थी मोहब्बत तुमसे

तेरी मजबूरी क्या थी जो किया है किनारा हमसे।

I was helpless, bound by the love I felt for you,

What was your compulsion that made you distance yourself from me?

​वो तेरा बाँकपन और बेबाक गुफ़्तगू का अंदाज़

और मेरा बेचैन निगाहों से तुम्हें देखने का राज़।

That charm of yours and your bold way of speaking,

And the secret of me watching you with restless eyes.

​वो तेरा बेसाख़्ता अल्हड़पन जिस का कोई न था जबाज़

और मेरा तुम्हें याद करने से न आना बाज़।

That spontaneous innocence of yours, which needed no justification,

And my inability to refrain from remembering you.

​तेरी दिलकश वो अदाएँ और तेरे दिलफ़रोज़ आदत

मेरे टूटे हुए ख़्वाब और वो बिखरे हुए जज़्बात।

Those captivating ways of yours and your heart-pleasing habits,

My broken dreams and those scattered emotions.

​हमको पहले से मालूम था तेरी बेरुख़ी का सबब

इसलिए तेरी बेवफ़ाई का हमने रखा था अदब।

I already knew the reason behind your indifference,

Which is why I treated even your unfaithfulness with respect.

​मोहब्बत जब हद से गुज़रती है तो कोई तवक्क़ो नहीं रहती

क्योंकि बेलोस शफ़क़त वो शै है जिसमें ख़ुदी नहीं होती।

When love crosses all limits, no expectations remain,

Because selfless affection is something that holds no ego.

​तुमको मैं बेवफ़ा कैसे कह सकता हूँ, बता

तुम्हें वफ़ा चीज़ क्या है यह भी नहीं है पता।

Tell me, how can I call you unfaithful?

When you do not even know what faithfulness truly means.

​इतनी मासूमियत से तुम्हें क़ुदरत ने नवाज़ा है

तुम्हें शायद मालूम ही नहीं है कि उल्फ़त क्या है।

Nature has blessed you with such innocence,

Perhaps you do not even realize what love truly is.

Raze Ikhlakhiat

राज़-ए-इख़लाक़ियात

बहबूदियों में न रहो तुम इतना भी बहुत मग़रूर।

बर्बादियाँ भी पीछा करती हुई आती हैं फिर ज़रूर।

​Do not be so terribly proud in times of prosperity.

Ruination, too, inevitably comes chasing after.

चाहिए कितनी भी उड़ान भरने की हिम्मत तुम में हो मगर।

तुम ज़मीन से जुड़े हो और अपने क़दम भी रखना 

No matter how much courage you have to soar high,

You are rooted to the earth, so keep your feet firmly on the 

पेश आओ सबों से तुम बड़ी ख़ुश-अस्लूबी से।

दर्द-ए-दिल रखो सम्भाले तबीयत में बहुत 

Treat everyone with immense grace and politeness.

Nurture empathy in your heart with deep elegance.

​ख़ुद पहल करो मिलने की सब से, छोड़ के यह सारा ग़रूर।

वरना रह जाओगे अकेले ही, चाहे कितने 

Take the initiative to greet everyone yourself, casting aside all pride.

Otherwise, you will be left entirely alone, no matter how famous you a

कुछ हासिल नहीं होता करने से दलीलों पर तक़रार।

जीत जाते हो तक़रार और खो देते हो अपने 

Nothing is gained by arguing endlessly over points of debate.

You win the argument, but lose your close beloved friends.

माल-ओ-ज़र कितना भी समेटो, आख़िर यह दुनिया फ़ानी है।

एक सांस रुक जाएगी बंदे की तो यह सब 

No matter how much wealth and riches you gather, this world is ultimately mortal.

Once a person's breath stops, all of it becomes completely 

उतना ही कमाओ ईमान से ज़िंदगी में जितना हो दरकार।

और कुछ ज़्यादा कमाओगे तो वो सब कर दो खैरात ।

Earn with honesty in life only as much as is genuinely needed.

And if you earn anything extra, give all of it to needy 

ख़ाक से ही बने हो और होना भी तुम्हें है आख़िर पुर-ख़ाक।

ख़त्म होंगे तेरे सब फ़साने और रह जाएँगे बस तेरे इखलाक ।

You are made of dust, and in the end, you must return to dust.

All your stories will come to an end, and only your character and morals will remain.

Wednesday, 26 August 2026

Asoodgi

Asoodgi

​अहले अहबाब

जब से आसूदगी बढ़ने लगी है, रिश्ते नाते बिगड़ने लगे हैं।

और मेरे सारे दोस्त, अहले अहबाब सब मुझसे बिछड़ने लगे हैं।

​Ever since comfort and prosperity started growing, relationships have begun to sour.

And all my friends, my loved ones, have all started drifting away from me.

रुस्वा हुए हैं रिश्ते और दोस्त भी रंग बदल रहे हैं।

कुछ भी हुआ न हासिल, बस सब दूर हो गए हैं।

Relationships have been disgraced, and friends too are changing their true colors.

Nothing was gained; everyone has simply grown distant.

यह सब तरक्की और कामयाबी के ही ज़मनी असरात हैं,

और आपसी होड़ की वजह के ही यह करामात हैं।

​These are all side effects of progress and success,

And these outcomes are the direct result of mutual rivalry.

कह दो इन रंजिशों से कहीं दूर जा के बरसे।

हम सब अपने आपस में मिलने को कभी न तरसे।

Tell these animosities to go pour down somewhere far away,

So that we never have to long just to meet one another.

हमने हासिल किया बहुत कुछ, पर सुकून हुआ न हासिल।

दिल रेख़्ता हो चुका है, और पता नहीं है कैसे हो यह बासिल।

We achieved a great deal, yet peace of mind eluded us.

The heart has turned to dust, and I do not know how it can be restored.

ज़आती मसलों में हुए हैं इस क़दर मुलविस और मसरूफ़ हम।

मिलने की फ़ुरसत किसी को नहीं और पता नहीं कब टूट जाए यह दम।

​We have become so involved and consumed in personal affairs,

No one has time to meet, and who knows when this life will come to an end.

सिर्फ़ लोगों के रुतबे और ओहदे से ही, बना लेते हैं पहचान हम।

रखते नहीं कभी कोई लिहाज़, अपने दोस्ती या आशनाई का हम।

​We define people’s identities solely by their status and rank.

We no longer hold any regard for our friendships or acquaintances.

अपनों की नुक़्ता-चीनी और मुनाफ़िक़त से बना है हमारा किरदार।

बन सके न हम कभी किसी के हमदर्द या ग़मख़्वार।

​Our character has been shaped by criticizing our own and by hypocrisy.

We could never become anyone’s compassionate companion or sharer of grief.

क़ाफ़िले रुक गए हैं और फ़ासले बढ़ चुके हैं, रमेश।

रास्ते बदल गए हैं मंज़िलों का पता नहीं है।

​The caravans have halted, and distances have grown, Ramesh.

The paths have changed, and the destinations remain unknown.

Raze kamyabi



राज़-ए-कामयाबी

​क़ामयाबी देखती नहीं है सिर्फ़ आपकी सलाहियत और आपके हुनर।

यह आपके बेहतर मौक़े खोजने के अज़्म पर भी है मुनहसिर।

Success doesn't look only at your talent and your skill.

It also depends on your determination to search for better opportunities.


​बेहतर मौक़े जिंदगी में हर वक़्त मयस्सर नहीं हो पाते हैं।

यह वो शय है जो मिलते नहीं हैं बल्कि पैदा किए जाते हैं।

Better opportunities are not available in life all the time.

These are things that are not simply found, but are created.


​आपकी कामयाबियाँ और नाकामयाबियाँ आपकी सोच से ही हैं पुरअसर।

अब आपकी कौन सी सोच कितनी मज़बूत है वही आपको है मयस्सर।

Your successes and failures are deeply influenced by your mindset.

Which of your thoughts is strong enough determines what becomes available to you.


​बस तुम भरोसा रखो अपने आमाल और अपनी लियाक़त पर।

ताकि क़ुदरत तुम्हें तौफ़ीक़ बख़्शे और रहे आपकी हिमायत पर।

Just keep faith in your actions and your capability.

So that Nature grants you divine ability and stands in your support.


​अपने को खुद तरसी का शिकार न होने देना थोड़ी सी रियायत के लिए।

खुद एतमादी का जज़्बा पैदा करना ज़रूरी है अपनी नवीयत के लिए।

Do not let yourself fall victim to self-pity for the sake of small concessions.

Cultivating the spirit of self-confidence is essential for your true nature.


​क़ामयाबी किसी को मिलती ख़ैरात में हो, बिल्कुल भी नहीं।

तुम पहला क़दम तो बढ़ाओ और कोशिश करो तो सही।

Success is never handed out to anyone as charity, not at all.

At least take the first step and give it an honest try.


​किसी को अपने पे हावी न होने देना और किसी से मुतास्सिर न होना तब तक,

खुद अहसासी के ज़रिए से ही बना लेना ज़रूरी है अपना मंतक़।

Do not let anyone overpower you, nor be influenced by anyone until

you establish your own logic through self-awareness.


​क़ुदरत ने तुम्हें इतनी क़ुवत से नवाज़ा है, रमेश

तुम अपनी क़िस्मत को भी अपने आमाल से बदल सकते हो।

Nature has blessed you with immense strength, Ramesh;

you can even rewrite your destiny through your actions.

Shawoore khud ehsasi


​shawoore khud ehsasi 

रोशन ख़याली से वाबस्ता होना चाहिए हर बंदा और हर बशर।

खुद अहसासी का शऊर पैदा करना चाहिए अपने दिल-ओ-जाँ के अंदर।

​Every person and every human being should be connected with enlightened thinking. One should awaken the consciousness of self-awareness deep within their heart and soul.

​उफ़ुक़ पर होता है जब-जब अयाँ वो नूरे-अनवर।

आता है मुझको ये इल्हाम, शायद हो वो ज़हूरे-महेश्वर।

​Whenever that radiant, divine light becomes manifest on the horizon, I receive this spiritual inspiration that perhaps it is the manifestation of the Supreme God (Maheshwar).

​ब्रह्मा से लेकर एक घास के तिनके तक बसता है उसके जलवे का ही नूर।

पहचानता है उसको वही जो जीवन्मुक्त हो और हो इस ग़मे-दुनिया से दूर।

​From Brahma to a single blade of grass, the light of His glory resides in everything. Only he who is liberated in life and detached from the sorrows of this world recognizes Him.

​उसको देख सकते हो तुम हर बशर और हर शय में ज़रूर।

पर छोड़ना होगा तुम्हें हर हाल में अपना ये सारा ग़रूर।

​You can certainly see Him in every human being and every single thing, but you must completely give up all your pride under any circumstance.

​मैं बुतपरस्त तो नहीं मगर लगता है हर वक़्त मुझपर यही इल्ज़ाम।

मुझे हर शय में आता है नज़र वही, चाहे बुत हो या इंसान।

​I am not an idol worshipper, yet this accusation is placed upon me all the time. I behold only Him in everything, whether it is an idol or a human being.

​कैसे उस नूर से होगा मेरा मिलन, ये रहती है मेरी जुस्तजू।

फिर उसी का जलवा और शऊरे-अक्स आता है नज़र मुझे चारसू।

​How will I unite with that divine Light?—this remains my constant quest. Then I perceive His splendour and the conscious reflection of His image all around me.

हर जगह हर सिम्त और हर तरफ़ उसका ही जलवा है अयाँ।

हज़ारों आफ़ताब और माहताब नहीं कर सकते उसके नूर को बयाँ।

​Everywhere, in every direction, and on every side, His glory alone is evident. Thousands of suns and moons together cannot adequately describe His Light.

Raze Kamyabi


राज़-ए-कामयाबी

​क़ामयाबी देखती नहीं है सिर्फ़ आपकी सलाहियत और आपके हुनर।

यह आपके बेहतर मौक़े खोजने के अज़्म पर भी है मुनहसिर।

Success doesn't look only at your talent and your skill.

It also depends on your determination to search for better opportunities.


​बेहतर मौक़े जिंदगी में हर वक़्त मयस्सर नहीं हो पाते हैं।

यह वो शय है जो मिलते नहीं हैं बल्कि पैदा किए जाते हैं।

Better opportunities are not available in life all the time.

These are things that are not simply found, but are created.


​आपकी कामयाबियाँ और नाकामयाबियाँ आपकी सोच से ही हैं पुरअसर।

अब आपकी कौन सी सोच कितनी मज़बूत है वही आपको है मयस्सर।

Your successes and failures are deeply influenced by your mindset.

Which of your thoughts is strong enough determines what becomes available to you.


​बस तुम भरोसा रखो अपने आमाल और अपनी लियाक़त पर।

ताकि क़ुदरत तुम्हें तौफ़ीक़ बख़्शे और रहे आपकी हिमायत पर।

Just keep faith in your actions and your capability.

So that Nature grants you divine ability and stands in your support.


​अपने को खुद तरसी का शिकार न होने देना थोड़ी सी रियायत के लिए।

खुद एतमादी का जज़्बा पैदा करना ज़रूरी है अपनी नवीयत के लिए।

Do not let yourself fall victim to self-pity for the sake of small concessions.

Cultivating the spirit of self-confidence is essential for your true nature.


​क़ामयाबी किसी को मिलती ख़ैरात में हो, बिल्कुल भी नहीं।

तुम पहला क़दम तो बढ़ाओ और कोशिश करो तो सही।

Success is never handed out to anyone as charity, not at all.

At least take the first step and give it an honest try.


​किसी को अपने पे हावी न होने देना और किसी से मुतास्सिर न होना तब तक,

खुद अहसासी के ज़रिए से ही बना लेना ज़रूरी है अपना मंतक़।

Do not let anyone overpower you, nor be influenced by anyone until

you establish your own logic through self-awareness.


​क़ुदरत ने तुम्हें इतनी क़ुवत से नवाज़ा है, रमेश

तुम अपनी क़िस्मत को भी अपने आमाल से बदल सकते हो।

Nature has blessed you with immense strength, Ramesh;

you can even rewrite your destiny through your actions.

Tuesday, 25 August 2026

Ek khoj

Urdu Nazam: Ek Khoj (एक खोज)

Stanza 1

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

आख़िर मेरे ही दिल में मुझको आया वो नज़र।

और मैं भटकता रहा जिसके लिए हर गाँव हर शहर।

मैंने उसको पहचानने में भूल की इस क़दर।

उसकी ही इनायत से चलता है इस दुनिया का निज़ाम बेहतर।

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

Translation:

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

At last, I caught sight of Him right inside my own heart.

And I kept wandering for Him through every village and every city.

I made such a grave mistake in recognizing Him.

It is only by His grace that the system of this world runs smoothly.

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

Stanza 2

मैं ग़ाफ़िल रहा उसके नूरे-जलाल से जो मुझमें ही कहीं था मौजूद।

कस्तूरी जैसे ढूँढती है ख़ुशबू जो होती है उसमें ही महदूद।

मैं मुब्तिला था ग़लतफ़हमियों में और रहा बेख़बर।

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

Translation:

I remained oblivious to the light of His glory that was present somewhere within me.

Just as the musk deer searches for the fragrance that is contained within itself.

I was caught up in misunderstandings and remained unaware.

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

Stanza 3

मुझे मालूम नहीं था हर ज़र्रे में उसी का नूर रहता है।

और हर शय और हर बशर में उसका ही शऊर झलकता है।

मैं फिरता रहा उसकी तलाश में सारी दुनिया में दर-ब-दर।

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

Translation:

I did not know that His divine light resides in every particle.

And in every thing and every human, His consciousness shines through.

I kept roaming in His search all over the world from door to door.

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

Stanza 4

संतों ने कहा है वो शय पाक है बेशक जिसमें जान होती है।

बेजान पत्थर में भी उसी के शऊरे-अक्स की पहचान होती है।

मिल जाएगा वो उसको, बख़्शी जिसको होगी उसी ने वो नज़र।

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

Translation:

Saints have said that whatever possesses life is undoubtedly pure.

Even in a lifeless stone, there is the recognition of the reflection of His consciousness.

He will be found by the one who has been blessed by Him with that true vision.

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

Stanza 5

उसके ही नूर से होती है दुनिया में शाम-ओ-सहर।

और ढूँढता है जब बड़ी शिद्दत से उसको कोई बशर।

अपने से मिलाने की कोशिश में रखता नहीं है वो कोई कसर।

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

Translation:

It is from His light alone that dusk and dawn occur in the world.

And whenever a human searches for Him with great intensity,

He leaves no stone unturned in the effort to unite them with Himself.

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

Stanza 6

मुझे लगता था हर गोशा ज़िंदगी का बेजान।

जब तक रहा मैं उसके वजूद से अनजान।

ज़िंदगी बन गई है गुलज़ार जब से तसव्वुर में आया ज़हूरे-अनवर।

मैं ढूँढता रहा जिसको लगातार उम्र भर।

Translation:

Every corner of life felt lifeless to me

As long as I remained ignorant of His existence.

Life has turned into a blooming garden ever since the manifestation of His divine light entered my thoughts.

I kept searching for Him continuously all my life.

Monday, 24 August 2026

Raze Mahobat

Raze Mahobat 

खतम हो जाये जो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

यह वो शय है जो लगातार वसीह होती है।

​Love that comes to an end is not true love at all.

It is a realm that continuously expands and grows limitless.

​मोहब्बत लफ़्ज़ का बेवजह इस्तेमाल कई बार किया जाता है।

वाबस्तगी या जुनूने-इश्क़ को भी मोहब्बत का नाम दिया जाता है।

लेकिन बेलोस मोहब्बत एक अलग चीज़ ही होती है।

जो खतम हो जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​The word "love" is often thrown around without genuine cause.

Even attachment or the madness of obsession is given the label of love.

Yet selfless, pure love is an entirely different entity altogether.

That which eventually fades away is not true love.

​हम मोहब्बत करते हैं मगर इसके ग़मों से डरते हैं।

ग़म हमें मोहब्बत से नहीं जुनूने-इश्क़ से मिलते हैं।

जो अज़ीयत या कोई ग़म दे वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

जो खतम हो जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​We claim to love, yet we harbor fear of its inherent sorrows.

However, anguish stems not from love, but from obsessive passion.

That which inflicts pain or brings suffering is not love.

That which eventually fades away is not true love.

​हम आरज़ी कशिश को भी मोहब्बत समझते हैं।

जिस की वजह से हमें बड़े दुख सहने पड़ते हैं।

जिसमें दुख हो लगातार वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

जो खतम हो जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​We mistake temporary attraction for genuine love,

and because of this illusion, we endure deep sorrow.

A bond filled with endless suffering is not love.

That which eventually fades away is not true love.

​वाबस्तगी से हमारी उम्मीदें बहुत बढ़ती हैं।

और उम्मीद पूरी न होने से अज़ीयतें भी बढ़ती हैं।

जिसमें ख़ुदग़र्ज़ी हो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

जो खतम हो जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​Attachment inflates our expectations beyond measure,

and unfulfilled expectations only intensify our agony.

Anything driven by selfishness is not love.

That which eventually fades away is not true love.

​सच्ची मोहब्बत की गहराई को जानने के लिए

हमें इस के समझने के दायरे को वसी करना होगा।

जिसमें तंग-नज़री का एहसास हो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

जो खतम हो जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​To grasp the true depth of genuine love,

we must broaden the horizons of our understanding.

Whatever feels narrow-minded or restrictive is not love.

That which eventually fades away is not true love.

​हमें अपना दिल खुला और बेलोस रखने की कोशिश करनी होगी।

और अपनी तवज्जो ख़ुद से हटा कर महबूब को देनी होगी।

ख़ुदी में जो अज़ीयत है वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

खतम हो जाये जो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​We must strive to keep our hearts open and selfless,

shifting our focus entirely away from ourselves toward the beloved.

The inner torment born of self-centered ego is not love.

That which comes to an end is not true love.

​मोहब्बत एक आईना है जो हमारी वुसअत को बढ़ाने का ज़रिया होगा।

और बेलोस मोहब्बत में सिर्फ़ देने के किरदार का नज़रिया होगा।

लेने और मांगने में मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

खतम हो जाये जो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​Love is a mirror that serves as a medium to expand our soul.

In selfless love, the only perspective is that of giving.

Love does not reside in taking, demanding, or begging.

That which comes to an end is not true love.

​अपने महबूब के ख़ुशियों और ग़मों में शामिल होना होगा।

उस की ज़रूरत का हमेशा ख़याल रखना होगा।

उसकी इज़्ज़त करो बेशक, क़ाबू करने को मोहब्बत नहीं कहते हैं।

जो खतम हो जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​One must partake in the joy and grief of the beloved,

always remaining mindful and attentive to their needs.

Respect them deeply, for control over another is never love.

That which eventually fades away is not true love.

​घबराते हैं इश्क़ के अंजाम से बहुत शोअरा-ए-गिराम।

माफ़ कीजिएगा मुझे अगर हो जायेगा उनका कट्‍टा कलाम।

जो इख़्तिताम पर पहुँच जाये वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

यह वो शय है जो लगातार वसी होती है।

खतम हो जाये जो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

​Many esteemed poets tremble at the eventual outcome of love.

Pardon me if my sharp words happen to offend them—

for that which reaches a final conclusion is not true love.

It is a realm that continuously expands and grows limitless.

That which comes to an end is not true love.

​मोहब्बत में गिरने की नहीं उठने की ज़रूरत होती है।

यह वो एहसास है जिसको शऊर की ज़रूरत होती है।

जिसमें गिरने के इमकान हों वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

खतम हो जाये जो वो मोहब्बत नहीं होती है।

यह वो शय है जो लगातार वसी होती है।

​Love demands that we elevate ourselves, not fall into lower states.

It is an emotion that requires conscious awareness and wisdom.

Where there is a risk of degradation, that is not love.

That which comes to an end is not true love.

It is a realm that continuously expands and grows limitless.

Tuesday, 18 August 2026

Husne Ghazal


Husne Ghazal

वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा जो बड़ी मासूमियत से भरा था लब्बों पे था उसके तबस्सुम का जलवा मगर शख़्सियत में तकल्लुफ़ का पहरा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light, It was overflowing with pure innocence. A radiant smile graced her lips, Yet her persona was guarded by formality. That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

वह बेहतर सलीके की तरबीयत सी और तबीयत में उसके बहुत सादगी थी बड़ी सनसनी उसके गुफ़्तार में थी जैसे छुपा के रखा था राज़ गहरा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

She embodied refined manners and cultured upbringing, And her nature possessed profound simplicity. There was a quiet thrill in her speech, As if she held a deep secret hidden away. That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

दिल से उसके छलकती थी शफ़क़त रुख़्सार ऐसे कि हो मय के पियाले दांतों के बदले मोती जड़े थे आंखें थीं ऐसी कि हो झील ठहरा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

Compassion flowed gently from her heart, Her cheeks resembled cups of fine wine. In place of teeth, pearls seemed to be set, Her eyes were calm, like a still lake. That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

हैसियत थी उसकी मोहब्बत से लबरेज़ होंठों से फूटता था तरन्नुम एहसास में था बहुत ही तवाज़ुन गेसुओं का रंग भी था सुनहरा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

Her entire being was brimming with love, Melody burst forth naturally from her lips. There was a beautiful balance in her emotions, Even the colour  of her tresses was golden . That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

वह पेड़ से लिपटी हुई नाज़ुक सी डाली मगर खुद से उठने की ताक़त नहीं थी दिल में थे उसके हज़ारों ही नग़्मे मगर गुनगुनाने की हिम्मत पे पर्दा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

She was like a delicate branch clinging to a tree, Lacking the strength to rise on her own. A thousand melodies echoed in her heart, Yet a veil hindered her courage to hum them aloud. That face was deeply impactful and luminous light.

बहुत उसमें नफ़ासत की तालीम भी थी वह बनना बिगड़ना और फिर सँवरना बहुत उस पे नक़्क़ादों की भी नज़र थी मगर मैंने उसको हर नज़र से उबारा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

She possessed the fine art of elegance and grace, The cycle of taking shape, dissolving, and refining once more. The critical eyes of many reviewers were upon her, Yet I shielded and elevated her above every glance. That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

वह बेसाख़्ता और बेबाक नज़रें दिलों में चलाती थीं जैसे वह नश्तर मुझे भी बहुत दिलबरी उस से हुई थी मगर हद से निकलने की जुर्रत से हारा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

Those spontaneous and bold glances, Pierced through hearts like a surgeon's blade. I too felt a deep affection and charm for her, Yet I lost to the fear of crossing boundaries. That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

बड़ी हसरतों से मैंने उसको सँवारा और मुश्किलों से ज़हन से उतारा वह कोई नहीं मेरी पहली ग़ज़ल थी मेरी तख़लीक़ का था वही एक देहरा वह बहुत पुर-असर और पुर-नूर चेहरा

With immense longing, I nurtured and refined her, And with great effort, I finally transcribed her from my mind. She was no person, but my very first ghazal— The singular sanctuary of my creative creation. That face was deeply impactful and filled with luminous light.

वह कैसा वक़्त और कैसी घड़ी थी ग़ज़ल धूल पर ऐसे गिरी थी, जैसे कोई फूल हो शाख़ से रमेश, कहीं यह शेल/शेख़ का ही करम तो नहीं था जिसने बेतहाशा उसको कहा था कि पर्दा करो

What a tragic moment, what an unfortunate time it was, When the ghazal fell to the dust, like a blossom detached from its branch. Ramesh, could this perhaps be the doing of the Sheikh/critic, Who relentlessly insisted that she remain veiled and hidden?

Sunday, 16 August 2026

Dosti aur Dushmani

दोस्ती और दुश्मनी

अपनी सीरत में इतना तवाज़ुन तो पैदा कीजिए, दुश्मन को भी गले लगाने से परहेज़ न कीजिए। Develop such balance in your character, that you do not hesitate even to embrace your enemy.

दुश्मनों को आदतन हमेशा माफ़ करते रहिए, उन्हें परेशान करने का इस से बेहतर रास्ता न चुनिए। Make it a habit to always forgive your enemies; choose no better way to trouble them than this.

दुश्मनों को नफ़रत का मौक़ा थोड़ा ज़रूर दीजिए, इसी बहाने उनकी सारी नफ़रतों को मिटा दीजिए। Give your enemies a slight opportunity to hate, and use that very pretext to erase all their hatred.

आख़िर में तो बस दोस्तों की आवाज़ ही याद आएगी, दुश्मनों की तो सिर्फ़ ख़ामोशी ही बाक़ी रह जाएगी। In the end, only the voices of friends will be remembered; only the silence of enemies will remain.

हर मुश्किल हाल में दोस्ती का फ़र्ज़ निभाते चलिए, दुश्मनी निभाने की ज़हमत कभी न उठाइए। Fulfill the duty of friendship in every difficult situation; never take the trouble to harbor enmity.

दुश्मनों को दोस्त बनाना आज ही से शुरू कीजिए, इसी तरकीब से उनकी दुश्मनी फ़ना कर दीजिए। Start turning your enemies into friends today; destroy their enmity using this very strategy.

ज़िंदगी की कश्मकश के आख़िरी पड़ाव पर ठहरना चाहिए, उम्र भर के दुश्मनों को भी दोस्ती से सैराब करना चाहिए। One should pause at the final stage of life's struggles and quench even lifelong enemies with friendship.

जब आख़िरी वक़्त में साथ कुछ ले जा नहीं सकते, तो दुश्मनी ही साथ ले जा कर तुम क्या हासिल कर लोगे? When you cannot take anything with you at the final moment, what will you gain by carrying enmity along?

Saturday, 15 August 2026

Raze Taskeen

राज-ए-तस्कीं

एहसान मानता हूँ तेरा मैं, तूने दिया बहुत कुछ, शुक्रिया बहुत तुम्हारा, बिन माँगे ही मिल गया सब कुछ।

I am deeply grateful to You, for You have given me so much, My heartfelt thanks to You, for I received everything without even asking.

तस्कीं से लबरेज़ है दिल मेरा, सुकून मुझपर है तारी, सब कुछ मिला है मुझको, अब गिला करने की नहीं है बारी।

My heart is brimful of contentment, and a deep peace overwhelms me, I have received everything, and now there is no room left for complaint.

गिला करोगे उससे तुम, तो कुछ भी न होगा हासिल, जो कुछ दिया है उसने, उससे भी रहोगे गाफ़िल।

If you complain to Him, you will gain nothing at all, And you will remain oblivious even to the blessings He has already bestowed.

ख़ुश रहना है दुनिया में, तो क़ाबू कर लो ख़्वाहिशों को, सुकून होगा तुमको हासिल, ज़ाब्ते में रखो इन हसरतों को।

If you wish to live happily in this world, master your desires, You will attain true peace if you keep these longings within bounds.

थोड़े में ही ख़ुश रहने की, अपने अंदर आदत डालो, ख़्वाहिशें बेइंतहा होती हैं, इन्हें हद में ही पालो।

Cultivate the habit within yourself to be content with a little, Desires are endless; keep them nurtured strictly within limits.

जितना भी दिल से एहसान मानोगे उसकी शफ़क़त का, उतना ही घर भर देगा वह, तुम्हारा बड़ी बरकत से।

The more sincerely you cherish the debt of His boundless affection, The more richly He will shower blessings to fill your home.

खाना दस्तरख़्वान पर सजा हो, और एक छत हो सर ढकने के लिए, इससे ज़्यादा आदमी को दरकार है क्या, ज़िंदगी बसर करने के लिए?

Food adorned upon the table, and a roof above to cover one's head— What more does a person truly require to pass through this life?

जब फ़रमान आएगा उसका, एक पल की मोहलत वह न देगा, साथ अपने कुछ भी न ले सकोगे, सब कुछ यहीं धरा रहेगा।

When His final decree arrives, He will not grant a single moment’s reprieve, You will carry nothing with you; everything will remain left behind here.

एहसानमंदी का अपने अंदर, ऐसा शऊर पैदा कर लो, जो कुछ भी दिया उसने, क़बूल करके उसका शुक्रिया अदा कर लो।

Awaken such a deep consciousness of gratitude within yourself, That whatever He has granted, you accept with grace and render your thanks.

Thursday, 13 August 2026

chupta nahi dil ka haal


छुपता  नहीं दिल का हाल (Chupta Nahi Dil Ka Haal)


छुपता नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं। अपने दिल का सब हाल अपने ही आमाल बताते हैं।

 The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it. All the secrets of our heart are revealed by our own actions.

 जैसे हमारी सोच वैसे ही काम हम करते हैं। देखने वाले हमारी कार-कर्दगी पे नज़र रखते हैं। अपने दिल का सब हाल अपने ही आमाल बताते हैं। छुपता नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं।

 We act in accordance with how we think. Those who observe keep an eye on our performance and deeds. All the secrets of our heart are revealed by our own actions. The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it.

 अपने आमाल ही हमको खुशहाल या पामाल बनाते हैं। फिर भी सब से हम अपने अहवाल छुपाते हैं। आखिर अपने ही हालात सब को अपने आमाल सुनाते हैं। छुपता नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं।

Our own deeds make us prosperous or ruined. Yet, we keep hiding our true state from everyone. In the end, our circumstances narrate the story of our deeds to all. The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it.

हम गलतफहमी में होते हैं कि हम औरों से छुपाते हैं। हम अपने दिल का राज़ किसी और को नहीं सुनाते हैं। अपने ही इख्लाक़ से हम अपना सारा हाल सबको दिखाते हैं। छुपता नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं।

We live in the misconception that we are hiding it from others. We think we aren't sharing the secrets of our heart with anyone. Yet through our character and manners, we display our entire state to everyone. The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it.

अपनी सोच और आमाल के इल्ज़ाम हम अपनी किस्मत पे लगाते हैं। मस्बत आमाल से ही किस्मत वाले भी अपने हालात बनाते हैं। अपने किरदार से ही हम सबको अपने आमाल सुनाते हैं। छुपता  नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं।

We blame our fate for the outcomes of our thoughts and actions. Even the fortunate ones shape their circumstances through positive deeds. It is through our character that we announce our actions to everyone. The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it.

 हमारी सोच का हमारे आमाल पर बहुत असर होता है। और हमारे हालात हमारे आमाल पर मुनहसिर होते हैं। देखने वाले भी कई मुस्तैद नज़र रखते हैं। छुपता नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं। अपने दिल का सब हाल अपने ही आमाल बताते हैं।

Our thoughts heavily influence our actions. And our life circumstances depend directly on those actions. The observers around us keep a sharp and vigilant watch. The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it. All the secrets of our heart are revealed by our own actions.

 गर हमें अपने हालात बदलने होंगे, सबसे पहले अपनी सोच बदलनी होगी। सोच बदलने से आमाल सुधर जायेंगे, आमाल बदलने से हालात सुधर जायेंगे। अपने दिल का सब हाल अपने ही जज़्बात सुनाते हैं। अपने दिल का सब हाल अपने ही आमाल बताते हैं। छुपता नहीं दिल का हाल चाहे हम लाख छुपाते हैं।

 If we wish to change our circumstances, We must first change our way of thinking. Changing our thoughts will reform our actions; changing our actions will mend our circumstances. All the secrets of our heart are echoed by our own emotions. All the secrets of our heart are revealed by our own actions. The condition of the heart isn't hidden, no matter how much we try to conceal it.

Wednesday, 12 August 2026

Daulat aur Amiri


दौलत और अमीरी (Daulat aur Amiri)

फ़र्क़ होता है बहुत दौलत में और अमीरी में, ख़ुश रहता है बशर सुकून से फ़क़ीरी में।

 There is a vast difference between wealth and true richness, A human finds serene happiness even in simple contentment (fakiri).

मिलती है हमें दौलत सारी, ज़मीनों की वजह से, मेहनत करता है कोई अपने ख़ून-पसीने से। और मिलती है किसी को दौलत जद्दी-विरासत से, इंसान ज़मीन से लेता बहुत, वापस कुछ नहीं देता है, पेड़ और जानवर ज़मीन को लौटाते हैं भरपूरी में।

 We gain all our riches from the earth's bounty, Some toil hard with their sweat and blood. Others inherit fortune through ancestral lineage. Humans take immensely from the earth, giving nothing back, While trees and animals restore nature in full abundance.

फ़र्क़ होता है बहुत दौलत में और अमीरी में...

जो कम दौलत में गुज़ारा करे, लालच न करे, वो अमीर होता है, जिसके पास दौलत बहुत, पर पाने की हवस हो, वो ग़रीब होता है। इख़्तिलाफ़ रहता है यक़ीनन लालच और सबूरी में।

One who lives on little without greed is the truly rich one, While one with endless wealth who craves for more remains poor. There lies an undeniable conflict between greed and patience (saboori).

फ़र्क़ होता है बहुत दौलत में और अमीरी में...

अमीरी या ग़रीबी में दौलत का बहुत कम असर होता है, जिसके पास खाने-पहनाने के अलावा छत भी सर पर होता है, वो मेरी नज़र में दुनिया में बहुत अमीर होता है। इतनी दौलत जमा करना किसलिए फिर ज़रूरी है?

 Wealth plays a very minor role in being rich or poor, Whoever has food, clothes, and a shelter over their head, Is, in my view, immensely wealthy in this world. Why then is it necessary to hoard so much wealth?

फ़र्क़ होता है बहुत दौलत में और अमीरी में...

इंसान की अमीरी का पता जायदाद से नहीं, किरदार से लगता है, कोई गुर्बत में भी औरों की मदद करने में यक़ीन रखता है, और कोई अमीर होने के बावजूद किसी की मदद नहीं करता है। कोई जीता है इस दुनिया में सुकून से, और कोई जीता है मजबूरी में।

A person's true wealth is judged by character, not by property, Some believe in helping others even through their poverty, While others, despite being rich, offer no helping hand. Some live peacefully in this world, while others live bound by compulsion.

फ़र्क़ होता है बहुत दौलत में और अमीरी में...

ज़्यादा दौलत होने में ही खोने का डर सताता रहता है, जिसके पास उतना ही है जितना दरकार है, वो सुकून से जीता है। कोई ख़ुशहाली में जीता है, तो कोई बदहाली में मरता है, साथ चलते हैं इंसान के नेक आमाल, यहीं रह जाती दौलत सारी है।

Having excessive wealth brings the constant fear of losing it, But he who has just as much as needed lives in peace. Some live in prosperity, while others suffer in plight, Yet only good deeds accompany a human—all wealth remains left behind.

फ़र्क़ होता है बहुत दौलत में और अमीरी में, ख़ुश रहता है बशर सुकून से फ़क़ीरी में।