My Wanderings - 73. My Humble Tribute to my Sister

A  Sister is a gift to the heart , a  friend to the spirit, a  golden thread to the meaning of life .   Sister, you were  like my angel ,with a love that always glows . You were one of the greatest gifts my heart will ever know.
We would always fight , but we would always make up  as well. That is what siblings do . We agreed,  we  pointed  out each others frailties , mistakes and bad judgements  , we flashed  the insecurities we have had since long , and then we came back together untill the next time .
Our hearts had grown closer with the passing of time.  Through the ups and downs of life , we had come  closer to understand what it means to have each other. Sometimes we talked often ..Sometimes not . It did  not seem to matter,  the feelings of closeness remain  with me because I knew  you were always  there . I love you sister what a blessing it was to call you mine .
It was really a great tregedy that befell on  our family recently  because of the passing away  of our eldest sister Bahen ji,  a name very close to our heart and with which we all siblings addressed  her . She was very beautiful ,  graceful and elegant with an aura of purity hovering  around her personality  . She was epitome of  love, benevolence and sacrifice . She was spiritual to the core of her heart .   She had inherited the spiritual legacy  from her  illustrious father  Dr.Sham Lal Kaul, who was also a saintly and pious person . She was an ardent devotee of ShriKrisna and desciple of  Ishwar Saroop Swami Laxman ji of Ishbar . She was blessed with a heart of gold . She helped one and all, with out discrimination,  who so ever came for her help. She was selfless and dedicated person . She was most hospitable and understanding .
She was the personification of 13 and 14 shaloka ,  Chapter 12th of Srimath Bhagwath Gita , where Lord Krishna says
....One who is not envious but is a kind friend to all entities,  who does not think himself a proprieter and is free from false ego , who is equal in both happiness and distress , who is tolerant ,always satisfied ,self controlled and engaged in devotional service with determination , his mind and intelligence fixed on me....Such a devotee of mine is very dear to me .
She was lovely daughter , loving sister , dedicated wife and affectionate mother .
Her considerate  Husband was well aware of her spiritual and selfless qualities, who always co-operated her in such pursuits.
She was also  a hard taskmaster for her children and younger siblings but she loved all  of them immensely .   Her love was not limited to her family members only but she loved all the creatures of this universe whosoever came into her contact .
Whenever I had to encounter hard times in my life  , my sister  had been there for me through everything  and there is nobody that knew me better than her.
If you have a brother or sister , tell them you love them every day , which  is the most beautiful thing and that   we sometimes acknowledge late  . But now I can feel her presence all over in nature . I can see her in celestial bodies . I can feel her presence in the chirping of birds , rustling of leaves , howling of wind and flash of lightening . I can smell her in the early  spring flower buds  , her caresing in the first drizzle of monsoon , her warmth in the mild sun rays of autumn. She is moving all along with me so that I may not get lost in my Wanderings .
A million words would not bring you back my sister  , I know because I have tried , neither would a million tears, I know I have shed.